Dear anita,

today I got up before 7 and went for a morning walk. It took longer than planned, so I could not start working at 9. But in the afternoon I did work on project A. It was easier than I thought to figure out the software, but I am not satisfied with everything.

Weekly review:

Last week overall I think I did pretty o.K. I still wish that I was more productive. But I am doing better than before and this thread helps! Thank you for reading my posts.

1) Project A: I did finish the drawing of the cover, so I am pretty satisfied with myself. Now there is only the editing and layout left to do. I think I should first finish working on project A (and B), before working on another project. I did well enough on this.

2) Project B: I filled more than  3 pages, so I also reached my goals there! I still want to continue working on this project, whenever I become overwhelmed by project A.

3) Cleaning: I did well enough on this and cleaned most days. Right now my room looks a bit messy again, so I should pick some things up, after I am done with this post.

4) Exercise: I did o.K. Yesterday I did no exercise, but on most days I did a few minutes. Maybe I should do something harder, to release stress.

5) Food: I did not too well and ate a lot of sweets. But today  I ate none and feel better in my body. Also, I cook healthy meals most of the time, it’s only the sweets that are the problem.

6) Fun things: I tried a new recipe, but not the workout.

What I would like to improve:

– I would like to reduce my internet consumption and not use distracting websites before 10 am

– Always get up at 7 during the week

– Work at 9 and then again at 2 and stick to those times

Goals for next week:

Mainly the same as last week, working on projects A and B and trying to go outside once in a while to stay grounded.

Tomorrow I would like to work on project A, get up at 7 and work for some time starting 9 am and 2 pm. Exercise or go for a walk and clean for a few minutes.

Thank you for taking the time to read and reply always. This thread is helping me to find some balance.

Dear anita,

today I did better again. I started painting at 9, then at noon cooked some food and later cleaned my room. In the afternoon I painted more and I have finished 1 1/2 pages for project B. I will still paint some more and then read or do yoga maybe. Also, I did not eat any sweets today!

I still did not manage to stay away from the internet though, but at least it did not keep me from painting.

Tomorrow I would like to follow the routine again of painting at 9 and at 2. I write it here because it will motivate me to actually do it: I have to work on project A at least for a few minutes.

Dear anita,

today I did not stick completely to my schedule, but I did work on my projects in the morning and afternoon. Also, I worked on project A and understood some important things about the software.

Again, I did not eat any sweets and cooked a vegetable curry for the next days. I think I should really do yoga today, as I have neglected exercising in the last few days. Yesterday I talked on the phone to my sister and best friend, so there was also no time for it. But the good thing is, I can talk openly to my sister and my friend and it makes me feel better.

Tomorrow I would like to scan my illustrations for project A.

Dear anita,

today at work everything went o.K., no major problems. Only sometimes I am tense and I worry that I make others uncomfortable, that I make them feel like I judge them or something. But overall, it was fine.

After work, I managed to scan my drawings and started to edit them. I did so for about two hours. So I was very productive today and can be proud of myself.

Then I talked for a while to my new roommate and she is very likable. We could talk well and I feel good, like I am o.K., like I can get along with people. Only when I doubt myself things go wrong. How sad that I doubted myself so much that I ended up hiding in my room for months at the dormitories! That I thought all these bad things about myself and mistrusted myself so much! But I am starting to feel more like I am o.K.