Dear anita,

it makes sense what you said about stress. Actually, I felt stressed even though compared to others my life is not that stressful. Maybe work sometimes stresses me and maybe I stress myself out for not accomplishing enough. Maybe it is also because of having more options and not enough clarity about what to do next.

After a walk today I was feeling much better. It helped me to calm down and I got new ideas. After that I spent the rest of the day drawing and I could still draw more now. Even though I am going slowly, I still think I am on the right path. I do have enough ideas and I like my drawings. And when I am really in the flow like today, I am feeling passionate and like I want to do so much more. Maybe looking at my favorite illustrators and listening to podcasts helped reignite that fire. Sometimes I had lost it.

But today I am feeling good. Listening to music and drawing and going for a walk, it was a good day.

Tomorrow is my work day again. But after work I want to draw more.

Have a good day!

Dear anita,

you are right. The childhood experience leaves a big imprint on people!

At the moment I can’t focus very well and find the best words to respond. Everything I want to write sounds like platitudes… After my workday I am feeling tired. But it went well today, no big mistakes and I felt quite competent most of the time.

But I understand what you are saying and thank you!

Dear anita,

honest and kind are two things I really aspire to be!

Today I feel like I accomplished not so much. In the morning I started a drawing and then I cleaned our flat. Then I wanted to draw more, but my roommate said we were out of some household items and suggested we can go grocery shopping together. It kind of distracted me a bit. Waiting and such, I would have preferred to buy the things alone. Or maybe it bothers me that it was so spontaneous and I got off track with my plans. I should pause and think before saying yes next time. It would be nice to do things together, but not so spontaneously.

Tomorrow I really have to work on project D again.

Dear anita,

thanks for the compliment! I try my best!

It is true, I am not very much into spontaneous things. For me it’s better to know a few days before meeting somone etc. Somehow I became a bit confused yesterday.

Today went pretty well. I have finished one page of a booklet for project D and I want to draw more. Also, I tried out a new recipe: lentils and rice, called mujadara. It was good, especially with a yoghurt-cucumber dip. And for the next days I won’t have to cook.

Tomorrow I want to work more on project D, but also go outside or do yoga because I did not exercise at all during the last days!

Hope your weekend went well 🙂

Dera anita,

how did your visit at Trader Joe’s go?

In the morning I took a walk outside today. It was finally very nice weather with sunshine and a blue sky. I sat at a bench and journaled. On my way back I got a piece of strawberry cake from the bakery and it was very delicous. It reminds me that I still have to bake the rhubarb cake this week!

Then I drew a bit for project D, but later switched to a personal project. It was more fun and I enjoyed drawing just for my own pleasure, without having exams or professors in mind. Sometimes I had lost that, but recently I am finding my joy of drawing again.

Still, I have to make a better plan or something, else I will never finish my studies. For tomorrow I set the goal of finishing the collage for project D I started.

Until tomorrow!

• This reply was modified 3 years, 6 months ago by Lily.

Dear anita,

sorry that it was not quite as you expected! I can understand that it was a bit odd being the only one without a mask. But it was very considerate of you to still put on your mask to make everyone feel safe! Hope you felt better then and still had an enjoyable experience!

Today I was overall productive. In the morning I did yoga and drew in my art journal. Then I started working on a collage and have also finished it today. In the breaks I danced a bit, did my laundry and cleaned, hoovered and mopped my room.

Tomorrow I want to start a new collage or maybe draw in my other booklet.

Until then!

• This reply was modified 3 years, 6 months ago by Lily.

Dear anita,

yes we will have to get accustomed again to a life without masks and restrictions! Hopefully things will become more normal again. After all, there have been pandemics in the past and humans found cures. I feel more worried about climate change and extremist world leaders in power…

Here things recently got a bit more normal again. Shops opened for the first time again since December (except for a week or so of click and meet). Today I went to buy art supplies, but you were supposed to write your contact information down and I never know my phone number… Will have to try again!

Otherwise I was not as productive as I would like. It works better on days when I write down specific tasks in my planner, like yesterday. Wanting to write them in the morning doesn’t work for me. So I will better write them down now.

Hope your day went well! Until tomorrow!