October 28, 2020 at 7:23 am #368332Aiyana HendersonParticipant
Good morning, guys.
2020 has really been something, huh? I’ve been crying more than I usually have. In any other situation, I would keep this private and just write it out in my journals. But, due to the effects of the pandemic, things are rapidly becoming more chaotic for me internally. One minute, I’m happy and thinking things are getting back to normal. Also, keep in mind that I might be ranting a bit throughout this post, so if you don’t understand some things, I won’t hold it against you. I just have to let some things out regardless of if they’re from the past, present, or future.
But what can we do? We’re two months away from 2020 ending. Sure that’s a relief for a lot of people, but I’m feeling high key trepidation that 2021 will be more of a trash storm year. I’ve had rough years before for very personal reasons: 2011, 2013, 2016. I never thought 2020 would be this way. Yes, there were good things, but there has also been awful things.
And is this some collective karma that we’re all facing? Did we all do something bad in our previous lifetimes and this is one of the karma lessons we’re facing? Even my astrology charts are a little mixed. For my Solar Return chart, my North Node is the 4th house. Then, when I check my transits, it says my N.N. is transitioning in my 10th house. I guess balancing work and home has been a huge challenge this year. I won’t lie. If it wasn’t for the pandemic, I never would have realized who I really was as a person. In some ways, it seems as if things start, but then they abruptly end. I know one thing for sure: I will never take teachers, doctors, and even nurses for granted ever again. If I had a spa card for every one of them, I would give it out. Someone please help me make this sense to me. Don’t just tell me, “Everyone is struggling” or “We’re all in this together.” I need to hear your own truth, not what you think I might want to hear.October 28, 2020 at 9:08 am #368339anitaParticipant
Dear Aiyana Henderson:
You asked if 2020 is “some collective karma that we’re all facing? Did we all do something bad in our previous lifetimes and this is one of the karma lessons we’re facing?”, and you requested: “Someone please help me make this sense to me. Don’t just tell me, ‘Everyone is struggling’ or ‘We’re all in this together.’ I need to hear your own truth, not what you think I might want to hear”-
My own truth: the mishandling of the pandemic, political corruption, civil unrest, increased frequency and magnitude of wild fires and hurricanes, all which characterize this year of 2020- these are indeed the collective karma of human activities- these are only a few examples: ignoring science, politicizing masks, polluting the air, racism, white-collar crime, greed and selfishness on the part of politicians and financial policy-makers.