Anita, hi! I just so happened to received and read the email that tinybuddha.com sent me as an update to this thread that I commented on 3 years ago.

I read some of your comment and Anita I just want to say to forgive yourself. It is not the end of the world and you are not a horrible person, you simply grew up and now can see even more than before and understand even more than before.

Deserves celebration not flagellation!

I understand the feeling you’re having, I’ve also had it when I had a few recognitions and realizations of myself or my behavior at various times and it is indeed humbling.

Let your heart be mended by this humbleness. Forgive yourself!

There’s been times when others did that same thing with you, life is like this. We just live and learn and when we know better we simply do. And till we don’t, we don’t.

Love you girl, my fellow human sister!

Sending much much love your way radiating joy and gentleness!

May you be gentle and kind to yourself today, tomorrow and always!