I did talk back to ocd instead of running away from it.But the voice in my head still persists.Its making me anxious amd hard to sleep through it.

Its quite cheap in India and also I have my in laws to take care of the kid.You are right the drug made fall asleep faster lol.Its been two weeks since I am in India and was excited to meet my mother.It just triggered my religious OCD.Everybody in my family are more religious and ocd is telling me that i am a bad muslim.This theme sucks.I have been living with it for the past few years and it just sucks.

I am on good terms with my sister. Not sure how long will that last…lol.

I came here for two months.Unfortunately my company will not give me time off fot two months.So i told them i will be working remote and took off for only 5 days.yes everybody else sleeps.I take a nap during afteenoon.

Yeah.I am working remote from India during the PST timings.

Sometimes it makes me feel like i shouldnt have married.I am glad that we are in usa where i gave the freedom to wear what i want to,be the way in want to.If i would have stayed in India my marriage would have definitely resulted in divorce.I cant deal with a man who is always  worried about what his parents think.

Hey Anita..We reached India safely and I started thinking already .On top of that I have I have jetlag so unable to sleep through the night.Yesterday was my kids birthday and I wanted to decorate a certain way so asked my husband for help.He then asked his father how we should do it and involved him.He did the entire decoration his way and i stayed out of it out as i dont like his involvement.I asked my husbands help to help me with my kid.He said ok but then his father was going outside and he told me he wanted to help his father and he told me take care of the kiddo.When i insisted him that i need his help he helped me to some extent and then left.On top of that his grandmother is commenting about the way i was dressesd.I wore an indian wear but she wanted me to wear a saree which i dont like.I said no.Then she insisted to wear a scarf to cover my breast.I was dressed modestly witha full length top but she still expects me dress like the way she wants to and my husband didnt say anything.She doesnt even leave me kid.She wants my kid to wear certain things.My kiddo is finding hard to adjust on top of that her constant judgements.She even commented on my certain things i did.If she was my grand mom i would have told her on her face.I kept quiet because talking back to elders is wrong in my in laws house.Its just me ranting.As usual my husband is a mans child and i hate it.I have to deal with this shit one more week.So i am just ranting.

How are you doing ?