thanks a lot anita;) i think i have become a bit too health conscious these days. most of the time, i eat seafood, vegetables and rice along with low fat meats with low fat dairy products and also healthy fruits. since it has come down to the last few days of school, my classes have started parties and i hate having the unhealthy food. although i only had a party on last thursday and i ate three shortbread hazel balls, one small slice of pizza and half a cup of soda; i am a bit irritated b/c i didn’t go to the gym on friday or sunday, but i did do a three mile run on saturday in 10 minutes which burned 200 calories. also on monday, i ate a chocolate chip cookie, molasses cookie with chocolate fudge and a fudge graham cracker brownie. i know that i should have fun at parties at times and eating unhealthy food only a few times is okay, but i seem to be a bit annoyed still. after the parties, i often go out for a run or workout at the gym and i end up eating more fruits and vegetables and counting the calories i ate so i don’t go overboard. if it were me, i would love to avoid every party i get invited to so i can eat all healthy all the time. also i realize that my height 5′ 5” and i have become 120 instead of 118, but most of the time i know after working out i will lose the weight, but i’m still very insecure. oftentimes whenever i am sitting, i want to be up and working out b/c i feel as if the calories are adding up. i often may go to a party and eat minor calories then i will not eat anything unhealthy for 3 whole months no matter what. looking back at my notes from freshman year, i feel a bit sad b/c i felt i was a lot smarter back then than i am now. my parents say that it is b/c i have a lot on my mind and that my intelligence level is still the same, however i feel so insecure. one of my essays that i wrote for biology sounds so much better than the essays i have been writing now. i feel like i have gone from a smart child to one who doubts myself and doesn’t know how to do anything. looking back at how i was before, i wonder if i really wrote this and why i went from being happy with myself to someone so filled with doubt. i have so many questions about whether i know how to survive in this world with money, cars, rent. it would be better if my parents didn’t say my head is in the clouds with spirituality b/c being out in nature and meditating with angels helps me relax. my special friend thinks i overthink who i am. i think they have a view that science and spirituality don’t mix. here is a sample of my biology honors essay from freshman year (it is a research done on liver cancer, i love science and the medical field):

Liver cancer affects liver tissue. Liver cancer is the fifth most common cancer. It affects more men than women usually around the age of sixty-seven. Liver cancer can be fatal if not treated. A five year relative survival is 50% for a healthy individual who undergoes surgery. Blood tests can detect if there is high alpha-fetoprotein in the liver which is normally produced by the fetus, but if there is a lot it could mean liver cancer. Ct scans can be used to see if there are tumors in the liver. Liver cancer can spread to the lungs and elsewhere before it is diagnosed. Most liver cancers originated elsewhere in the body and spread to the liver. Studies have stated that an absence or malfunctioning of microRNAs (miRNAs) could be leading to liver cancer. MiRNA is an RNA fragment that prevents the building of a specific protein by binding to and destroying the mRNA that would have built that protein. Without this molecule, the liver develops fat deposits, inflammation and tumors. Restoring miRNA-122 reduced the size and number of tumors.

The cancer cells can spread to the bloodstream, lymphatic system and abdominal area. Treatments include surgery, chemotherapy and radiation. Surgery can be used to remove the cancerous areas of the liver or to have a liver transplant. Chemotherapy includes the use of drugs, doxyrubicin and cisplatin both which either slows or stops the growth of cancer cells. However, use of chemotherapy only shrinks a small portion and the effect is not long lasting. Chemoembolization is a procedure in which anticancer drugs are administered into the tumor and the blood supply to the tumor is blocked. External radiation can be used with a large machine sending high energy beams at the patient’s chest and abs.

There are four stages of liver cancer. Stage I is when the tumor is found in the liver only. In stage II, the tumor has spread to the blood vessels or there is more than one tumor present, but it is smaller than 5 cm. If there is more than one tumor and it is bigger than 5 cm, the cancer has spread to the blood vessels or lymph nodes. The last stage, Stage IV is when the cancer has spread to other locations in the body.

there is more to the essay and i might post it later;)

it’s odd that things on this site have started to malfunction. this is really pretty;)

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so today was the last meeting of garden club (francine, andrew, cadi- friend who likes anime- and me) had a minor party. cadi’s hazel shortbread balls were the best. the art club (andrew and cati; i also wanted to join, but i had voices on tuesdays, but i still had them help with my angel mural which is pretty much done except for the paint) also had a party with pizza, brownie munchkins and drinks (fruit punch, lemonade, sprite, orange soda). in ap world history today, i spent some time learning how to code in java script and it is quite fun, i can’t wait to take java next year. in ap english, andrew was helping me with my college essay which i revised and added extra details to and it sounds quite good. anyway, for the garden club today, i was telling andrew how my subconscious mind often picks up things and how i don’t study as much b/c i tend to pay attention when the teacher is teaching. anyway, andrew said his mural of the plane needs to have a poem as well b/c he liked the poem i did for my mural. i realize i remembered a lot more in my math and science classes than i thought i did b/c when i did the final review i remembered everything except for three questions. i realize i really enjoy math and science a lot even though my teachers have told me that i am also good at english and history. i am thinking of dropping business and website development (might take it in college) for ap physics because you get to learn about electricity and magnetism. dakota’s presentation yesterday on magnetic water and how it absorbs more than tap water for plants was quite interesting, also the trains that have electrical current that makes it magnetized and shoots it through a spring was a cool experiment. i realize i actually understand physics, mechanics, field biology a lot more than i thought, maybe there is a little of andrew in me as well.

thanks a lot anita;) you are a great person;) i finished my angel mural today and it turned out great, i am apparently a good artist since it only took me 30 minutes, dave was quite helpful, when i wanted to give up on drawing the man in the window reading a book, dave encouraged me. when it was finished, even andrew said it was quite cool and he said he liked the stars and the poem i wrote. andrew said the art really expressed my ingenuity. i realize i also know a lot more about environmental biology than i thought i did b/c andrew and i were talking about caves in ap english today and the formation of stalactites and stalagmites. my lunch buddy steve was quite entertaining today and he helped me with my english essay. i think everyone is happy school is almost over b/c andrew has gotten more laid-back in his work and has started a new hobby of experimenting with science and art and dave has started reading some new books. i can’t wait for next year’s ap calc and ap biology b/c i met the teachers for the summer work and they are really nice and smart. my next year java teacher is going to be my former sophomore geometry honors teacher and she was great even though i struggled a bit in her class, i now understand the concepts. yesterday, francine (freshman friend whose in garden club with me and andrew) were in the library and we were discussing our classes and enjoying the fact that it was almost summer. francine made me laugh when we had an argument over whether andrew preferred cookies, brownies or muffins, we decided to go ask andrew in the rotc room and i was right that he liked cookies better and it was quite entertaining. andrew told this funny story about this magnetic train that could go through a slinky run by an electric current and when the current was removed it (the train) could shoot into a basketball hoop, we were all laughing as we watched the demonstration. i have found andrew and i have more in common than i thought b/c we both love science and math more than english, we often help each other with our math and science work in our ap english class b/c we are bored with english at times. dave often helps both of us with our literature essays. anyway, dakota and his friends presentation in physics honors on magnetism was quite cool today and it made me wonder how much of the world revolves around physics and how cool it is that ferrofluid (mixture containing iron and other metals) becomes magnetized when introduced by a magnetic field and also the stronger the current the stronger the magnetic field and the faster the slot car (toy race cars on track) goes. i think i have a better understanding of electricity and magnetism after physics honors and the properties of light. in that way, i think andrew and i are more like than i thought.

cool that you have a 3D printer at home, what do you usually use it for? Maker’s Space sounds pretty cool especially with the computer science and electronics aspect, do you know any websites that correspond to it?

What do you think of this essay for treasurer or secretary of Academic Challenge?

Keeping track of money and recording events are important to the legacy of Academic Challenge. Having a secretary or treasurer helps our class thrive. I am willing to be a part of the legacy of making Academic Challenge thrive. i am a hardworker, often taking copious notes in class. Taking notes has always been important to me since it helps me organize my priorities. I have fundraised with VOICES for Relay for Life often seling cancer ribbon cards to raise money and awareness for a cure. My experience working at a restaurant has helped me learn to manage money wisely since I often help package and total the amount of the customer’s orders. I would enjoy taking on the responsibility of becoming either a Recording Secretary or Treasurer.

Passionate, Attentive and Organized best describe me. I am a passionate math and english student. During class, I often take notes and organize them to help me prepare for a test since I love learning. In an Academic Challenge meeting, I could be responsible for recording the ideas others say, organizing them and making a plan on different club activities and competitions. In eighth grade, my math teacher made us do a budget project where we pretended to grocery shop and we were given a balance of how much we could spend and the necessities we needed; I had lots of fun comparison shopping for the items and the project opened my eyes to the value of money. I am also an attentive listener and enjoy helping others, if there is anything that seems wrong you can come to me and talk. I would help fundraise for Academic Challenge by putting posters for half-court shots, making bracelets (I love craft making), etc. Talking to teachers, other students and customers of my restaurant, I would gather and plan the resources such as money and supplies to help this club in making its way to a successful competition.

I would be dedicated and responsible in counting and keeping the money in a safe envelope after fundraisers and also in keeping my notes organized. I would like to use my skills in helping plan and organize the Academic Challenge’s events. Let’s work together towards creating a legacy of academic success!

I would love to know myself beyond the being that competes, beyond all other worldly pressures. my lunch buddy steve is quite mellow and is quite fun to be around. he is okay with who he is and he isn’t much interested in electronics either, but he like me is quite good at math and science. he never really liked environmental and field sciences as much as andrew does, i enjoy all sciences, but i’m not the most knowledgeable in that field. i know a decent amount of mechanics and i think andrew often likes to compete in that field. i like my friends b/c i can be myself around them, but sometimes i feel like andrew doesn’t appreciate me for the talents i have and he competes with me making me also be more competitive and change parts of myself to keep up with the knowledge. as my special friend says “i have begun to drag myself into competition and have become quite immersed in it.” he doesn’t like the person i’ve become. there are times when andrew and i are quite laid-back and we just talk about science, but most of the time it starts to turn competitive. i don’t think andrew likes the spiritual side of me much b/c he still seems irritated over the fact that my angel mural and poems are getting interest and his artwork in technology isn’t.

thanks a lot anita;) i realize i love knowledge, but sometimes my sense of spirituality tends to clash with my knowledge. i would love to learn more about radios and computers, but somehow my sense of spirituality often makes me doubt myself at times. there are some people who say i have my head in the clouds b/c i like to write poetry. i really enjoy learning about nuclear energy, solar power lots of things science related. however i would like to know more about environmental and field sciences as well as applied sciences such as mechanics and electricity magnetism. i have courses for them and i feel like i have learned lots about science and yet i still feel like an “average joe.” sometimes i wish i could be more like andrew and dave who seem to have all the answers and everyone looks up to them.

also, i successfully calculated the barometric pressure (wind pressure) and humidity missed by 11%, it was 91%, but I said 80%, however I was right in calculating the wind pressure and saying that it would rain w/o checking the weather channel.

i have started a draft of my common app essay and i am feeling pretty confident about it. we only had twenty minutes in ap english to write it and the teacher took my draft eve though i wanted to finish it. i have the basic outline for the essay down, but i’m a little irritated at my ap english teacher for not letting us finish it at home b/c i have good free time when i can concentrate instead of being in class with 30 people and noise. i think i will remember the essay though. andrew was quite entertaining during ap english and he also helped me with my essay. dave also proofread some parts. my friend jenna (lunch friend) who is a senior is great at giving advice at college and my lunch buddy steve is quite entertaining.

i love theoretical physics and quantum mechanics. i always disagree with the saying “Time goes by fast.” According to Einstein’s theory of space time, time such as clock is a linear quantity while the past, present and future are considered dynamic and fluid dimensions in the universe. Since it isn’t possible to revisit the past or go into the future, it is only possible to live in the present. Anyway, the dimensions of time, since earth travels at a constant velocity of 29.8 km/sec continue to be constant and we continue to live in the same spacial dimensions. Also I have often felt at times when you reach a spiritual knowing inside that there is no universal time since the universe is so vast (the reason we have the calendar and clock is to keep things organized and in a linear, measurable faction). when you feel truly alive and one with the world, you realize that you are part of the entire universe which stretches boundless, universal and timeless and you realize the true immortality of your spirit. Scientists have discovered that every organism has components of carbon, nitrogen and oxygen since these are all forms of energy and according to the law of conservation of energy, there is a chance that the spirit energy within your body leaves at the moment of passing b/c the body ends up weighing 6% less. In this way, I believe we are truly spiritual and timeless beings.

I think i might right a poem called “Immersed in Divine” or “Immortality”