Dear anita

Thank you so much for your reply! I was sure I won’t get any becaube of my long post.

I read your insight a few times now and it feels like you got this right. It is true.. It did feel like I’ve been rejected. It felt like I was never been able to be myself around them and I didn’t really develop. I taught about this scenario before but I taught about so many others. I was never able to focus on any of them because they where to many.

I still feel uncomfortable around them and I still don’t feel connection. Knowing this now, makes me feel a little hopeless to be honest. Feels big and hard to deal with.

In this moment I really don’t know what to do. I feel like I should just leave and restart somewhere else. Maybe even back to Spain.

Thank you so much for this!