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  • in reply to: Am I not good enough? #197867
    Peter
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    I suspect the thought of being good enough crosses everyone mind especially at the end of a relationship. Its important to take responsibility for our stuff so asking ourselves if there was something we can learn, do better can be helpful however we must be careful not to take on what does not belong to us and that we don’t attach our sense of self to the acceptance of others.

    That you ask the question – You are good enough

    7 Things to Remember When You Think You’re Not Good Enough

    Why We Should All Stop Trying to Be Good Enough

    in reply to: What to do when nowhere feels like home #197817
    Peter
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    ― Hermann Hesse “Home is neither here nor there. Home is within you, or home is nowhere at all.”

    “For me, trees have always been the most penetrating preachers. I revere them when they live in tribes and families, in forests and groves. And even more I revere them when they stand alone. They are like lonely persons. Not like hermits who have stolen away out of some weakness, but like great, solitary men, like Beethoven and Nietzsche. In their highest boughs the world rustles, their roots rest in infinity; but they do not lose themselves there, they struggle with all the force of their lives for one thing only: to fulfill themselves according to their own laws, to build up their own form, to represent themselves. Nothing is holier, nothing is more exemplary than a beautiful, strong tree.

    When a tree is cut down and reveals its naked death-wound to the sun, one can read its whole history in the luminous, inscribed disk of its trunk: in the rings of its years, its scars, all the struggle, all the suffering, all the sickness, all the happiness and prosperity stand truly written, the narrow years and the luxurious years, the attacks withstood, the storms endured. And every young farm boy knows that the hardest and noblest wood has the narrowest rings, that high on the mountains and in continuing danger the most indestructible, the strongest, the ideal trees grow.

    Trees are sanctuaries. Whoever knows how to speak to them, whoever knows how to listen to them, can learn the truth. They do not preach learning and precepts, they preach, undeterred by particulars, the ancient law of life.

    A tree says: A kernel is hidden in me, a spark, a thought, I am life from eternal life. The attempt and the risk that the eternal mother took with me is unique, unique the form and veins of my skin, unique the smallest play of leaves in my branches and the smallest scar on my bark. I was made to form and reveal the eternal in my smallest special detail.

    A tree says: My strength is trust. I know nothing about my fathers, I know nothing about the thousand children that every year spring out of me. I live out the secret of my seed to the very end, and I care for nothing else. I trust that God is in me. I trust that my labor is holy. Out of this trust I live.

    When we are stricken and cannot bear our lives any longer, then a tree has something to say to us: Be still! Be still! Look at me! Life is not easy, life is not difficult. Those are childish thoughts. Let God speak within you, and your thoughts will grow silent. You are anxious because your path leads away from mother and home. But every step and every day lead you back again to the mother. Home is neither here nor there. Home is within you, or home is nowhere at all.

    A longing to wander tears my heart when I hear trees rustling in the wind at evening. If one listens to them silently for a long time, this longing reveals its kernel, its meaning. It is not so much a matter of escaping from one’s suffering, though it may seem to be so. It is a longing for home, for a memory of the mother, for new metaphors for life. It leads home. Every path leads homeward, every step is birth, every step is death, every grave is mother.

    So the tree rustles in the evening, when we stand uneasy before our own childish thoughts: Trees have long thoughts, long-breathing and restful, just as they have longer lives than ours. They are wiser than we are, as long as we do not listen to them. But when we have learned how to listen to trees, then the brevity and the quickness and the childlike hastiness of our thoughts achieve an incomparable joy. Whoever has learned how to listen to trees no longer wants to be a tree. He wants to be nothing except what he is. That is home. That is happiness.” ― Hermann Hesse

     

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    Should I be proud of my achievements if they were obtained through luck

    Pride can be a complex emotion, to much and we lose the ability to see others and ourselves, to little and we lose the ability to see ourselves and others. When we can take pleasure in our work we ought to.  At the same time we need to be careful that we don’t attache our sense of self on our work, achieves or failures. The ego likes to attach itself to achievements – “I” am a good person because I am good a playing the piano. The ego will also attach itself to our failures – “I” am a bad person because I suck at playing the piano.  ‘You’ are not your ego

    Take pleasure in your achievements just be careful if you find yourself defining yourself as being this or that based on those achievements.

    in reply to: My anxiety is ruining my relationship please help #197507
    Peter
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    Hi Rhys

    Its normal in relationships to worry and experience jealousy… That said the anxiety and panic attacks are your ways of coping with uncertainty, worry and concern. From that perspective the attacks are not connected to your relationship.

    The first task then is not to ‘fix’ your relationship but to find a better method of coping with uncertainty, worry and concern. These issues belong to you so be mindful if you start to project them onto your partner. For example, giving your power away by making your partner responsible for your feelings.

    If you can try to find a way to create some space where you can ‘detach’ yourself from the experience of panic – as in not attach your sense of ‘I’ to the experience/emotions. (you are not your experiences or your emotions or your relationship…) Here you feel what you feel without becoming what you feel – a difference between ‘I feel sad’ and ‘I am sad’

    By ‘detaching’ your sense of ‘I’ from the experience and emotions you will be better able to de-escalate the anxiety creating the space where you can better deal with the concerns you may have about your relationship .

     

    in reply to: Painful love addiction #197305
    Peter
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    Hi Talia:

    Is there any particular reason that I would be subconsciously looking for a dad and not a mom even though I mostly had issues with my mom?

    Its complicated

    Jung suggested that a part of becoming – individuation process – involves coming to terms with mother and father complex. Which is not about blaming our parents but the process of learning how to nurture and protect ourselves by connecting to our own inner mother and father archetype/energy/ideal…

    The problem is that we relate to and confuse both the archetype of mother and father as well as our experience of our mother and father (for the positive and negative).

    The mother archetype in general terms representing the ways in which we nurture ourselves while the father archetype how we discipline and protect ourselves. The tendency is to confuse, project, and mix up the archetype/ideal with our parents and it becomes, well, complex.

    As we move into adulthood the task is to pull back our projections and in doing so take responsibility for parenting ourselves. The goal is connecting to our inner “mother” and “father” in a way that opens us to being able to love ourselves unconditionally and disciplining ourselves.

    The process is complex as it involves becoming conscious/mindful of what we mean by, and how we relate to and apply to ourselves, concepts such as unconditional love, nurture, discipline, responsibility, accountability, forgiveness…. All of which have been influenced and sometimes corrupted by our experiences… all of which impact our ability to nurture and protect ourselves (forgive us our errors as we forgive others – as above so below as below so above – how we relate to ourselves is connected to how we relate to others)

    Anyway, when you being to see your parents, partners, friends.. as individuals, flawed, with hopes of dreams of there own, doing their best as they encounter their complex’s… perhaps not good enough, they remain accountable however its not about blame. Blame only attaches us to the experience that hurt us.  The goal is detachment, which is different then indifference and becoming cold, is that is allows us space to view the experience, fully feel what we feel, without becoming what we feel, create healthy boundary’s, and learn what we can so that we might grow.

    in reply to: I want to move on but i can't forgive her #197279
    Peter
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    Correction on my initial post – detachment is not indifference or stoicism

     

    Just another note on forgiveness

    When a person says they will never forgive, perhaps because they associate forgiveness with letting someone off the hook… The danger is that subconsciously they may be saying “I refuse to let go of the pain that was done to me. As long as I hold onto the hurt… I hurt and punish the one that hurt me… and I blame myself…

    Anita is right, you don’t need to consciously go through the process of forgiveness. It may not even be advisable if you are unclear as to what forgiveness means. Anita will help you learn what you need to learn from the experience and so hopefully move on… which can also be an important part of the forgiveness process.

    It is my hope that when you do find your way past the experience that hate and anger your feel will have dissipated as the danger is to become bitter.

     

    Joseph Campbell Tells the following story. It may not appear to be about forgiveness however it does I think point to why the process of forgiveness is important to becoming.

    A samurai warrior had the duty to avenge the murder of his overlord. After some time, he found and cornered the man who had murdered his overlord. As he was about to deal with him with his samurai sword, when this man in the corner, in the passion of terror, spat in his face. In this moment the samurai sheathed the sword and walked away. Why did he do that?

    Because he was made angry, and if he had killed that man then, it would have been a personal act, of another kind of act, that’s not what he had come to do.

    The samurai’s mission was not simply to kill the murderer, but to honor his master and fulfill his duty. Killing the murderer out of anger would not have fulfilled the intrinsic call of his duty. To an observer, whether he killed the culprit motivated by honor or anger, it wouldn’t have mattered. The murderer would be dead either way.

    But to the samurai, his own motivation made all the difference. He needed a crystal clear answer for why he was taking action, and a reactive response out of anger would not only be dishonorable, it would negate the reason for his quest.

    You can choose your response. You can observe an unhelpful emotion take hold, but you don’t have to react. You always can choose to act in a way that honors the vision of the person you truly want to be.

    Nothing is just a means to an end. Every action is an end in itself. The path is the destination, right? It’s the journey that matters.

    in reply to: I want to move on but i can't forgive her #197213
    Peter
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    My observation has been that people use the word forgiveness without really understanding what they mean by it.   (Often, we use words forgetting that they are place holders for an idea or process and not the thing itself – we mistake the map for the territory. )

    I have done a fair amount of study on the idea of forgiveness which is a process and turns out more often then not has very little to do with the person that hurt us. Forgiveness is a process of letting go of our grasping on to pain of the experience and not a process of forgetting (though there is an aspect of forgetting as in making the choice to not to dwell).

    Forgiveness also does not remove accountability, responsibility – break the law of karma/action – as in cause and effect.  If you steal from me I can forgive, let go of the pain, let go of vengeance, free myself from dwelling, wish you well… however you’re still going to jail. Not out of anger or hate but Love. If our actions had no consequence there would be no meaning, purpose or Love.

    A result of authentically working through the process of forgiveness allows a person to detach the emotions from the memory (detachment is not interference or stoicism). When remembering a hurtful experience (re–membering is a act of recreating) we may re-memeber sadness however we do not become sad. I feel sad vice I am sad. In this way or fixation on the memory fads. We learn what we can learn from the experience and move on with our lives as those that hurt us move on with theirs.

    What does forgiveness mean to you?

     

     

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    in reply to: Painful love addiction #197105
    Peter
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    Hi Talia

    Your creating a great deal of suffering for yourself. As you have had affairs in the past that did not work out and that this man is married something else is going on which has nothing to do with what this guy does or doesn’t do. Getting to the bottom of that before involving yourself any more may be helpful.

    I don’t mean to be cruel but you need to stop contacting married men. I don’t think  “just friends”works for you or that your ready for that.  You like the attention and validation you get from good looking guys however until you discover that such validation isn’t required for a strong sense of self your going to recreate the scenario repeatedly until you learn the lesson.

    You might want to create some space, with no men, and really look at what you want for yourself and what you want from a relationship.

    David Richo books on relationships might be helpful for you.

    in reply to: Painful love addiction #197095
    Peter
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    Hi Talia

     

    Whatever you do, do not think about pink elephants.

    Your fixated thoughts may have nothing to do with the acknowledged fantasy you have created. So, the question is why has your attention become fixated on these thoughts? What in other words is the payoff for you? What hopes. desires and dreams are really behind this fantasy? Why are you attracted to unavailable men or men you know are not right for you?

    I used to love watching the Dog Whisper.  A common issue was a dog’s fixation on some object which the dog couldn’t look away and stop barking at. Part of the solution was a practice of a tug delivered with calm assertiveness (I prefer the term intention but the key is being calm about it) to divert the attention.

    There is a part of the mind that directs consensus as if it were dog like. We tend not to think about our consciousness as something that we direct so tend to let it run wild un-trained. The practice of mindfulness can, by calmly noticing when our attention has become fixated, redirect our attention elsewhere.

    in reply to: No boundaries with my mother #197075
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    in reply to: Here again…(was in the wrong forum) #197033
    Peter
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    Dear Sapnap3:

    Trick is how does an unenlighten…mere beings ever stop wanting?

    Good question. I’m not sure if enlightenment, what ever that is, is required.  I do feel that Neil Gaimans short story holds a clue.

    Anyway, I hope everything works out for you. You appear to be very self aware so I’m sure it will.

    in reply to: Here again…(was in the wrong forum) #196941
    Peter
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    I am 35 and I want a marriage. The worst part is that I know I won’t find anyone ever as I am “too old” now.

    “When did the future switch from being a promise to being a threat?”  ― Chuck Palahniuk

    “Knowing too much of your future is never a good thing.” ― Rick Riordan

    The word marriage, what does it mean?  Why does a word hold so much power? Do we mistake the map for the territory and miss the experience?

    It is to easy to create what we fear so difficult to create what we hope for… though the process is the same.

    Neil wrote a great short story – October about a woman who finds the magic lamp and gets three wishes only she refuses to make any. She’s good she tells the genie. At first the genie can’t understand but as time goes by a relationship forms with the genie doing things for the woman and the woman doing things for the genie all without wishes or the like. Later the woman asks the genie what his three wishes would be. He’s good he tells her.

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    in reply to: I don’t know myself #196765
    Peter
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    Hi Bella

    What do you mean by “emotionally dependency”? Are you saying that your sense of self is tied up in having your emotions validated by someone other then yourself?  Or are you saying you needed a safe place to share your emotions and without that safe place find yourself wondering who you are?

    In Zen there is the concept of Two Minds — the thinking mind and the observing mind. Most of our psychological and emotional stress happens because our Thinking Mind and Observing Mind are “fused” and we don’t recognize the difference.

    For example. We have a experience that leaves us feeling sad and then we become sad.  We say ‘I’ am sad and doing so mistake our thoughts and our feelings for who we are.

    Our emotions can teach us a great deal about how our experiences are influencing us so its very important to feel them, however it is a error to mistake our sense of self as ‘being’ our emotions, or our thoughts. “You” are not your emotions or your thinking,,,,,

    Why We Need to Stop Judging Our Feelings

    in reply to: Inner Peace. #196591
    Peter
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    There’s a Zen story about an eager young monk who checks into a monastery and is rearing to go get this thing called enlightenment. “How long will it take?” he asks the abbot.

    “Ten years,” replies the abbot.

    “That long! Why so long?” exclaims the horrified young monk.

    “Did I say ten? I meant twenty.”

    “Twenty?”

    “So sorry, I think it will take you thirty years.

    Asking “How long?” will get you ten. Three strikes will get you thirty. As soon as the expectation or imagery of awakening or inner peace pops up, you get thirty years.

    When we measure experiences, the experience starts to disappear and become something else.

    It is not calmness or inner peace we have when nothing is going on around us. It is when one’s actions and thoughts are calm, detached from outcomes and judgments (not indifference or stoicism), while engaged in the chaotic world around us that inner peace is “realized“.

    It is a paradox of enlightenment (inner peace) that to become… we work to get to a place where  we  stop giving a darn about it… this, I suspect, is why the Buddha is seen so often laughing…  we work for that which no work is required.

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    in reply to: Feeling ugly #196579
    Peter
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    Tom Holland was a illusion on the screen and you were with friends… Who would I rather be in that situation… you

    That said something that has nothing to do with your looks or who your friends find ‘good looking’  is bothering you. If you dig deeper what does your authentic self want from you but that you are resisting.

     

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