Yes VJ 🙂 I ve been practicing but just for a few min everyday. There’s just too much sensitivity and worry which keeps coming to the fore, especially in my daily interactions and my thoughts. I want to get rid of these from the root. I think these very things have me behave with supriority complex at times.   am glad I am aware of them now. I really like talking and I am pretty outgoing but if I worry too much about what I speak and the obsessive thoughts after that, I realise I have an overthinking mind and maybe i have to find a sense of self/confidence ..woah! Too much inner work to do. At my age I should have been happy, confident, healthy relationships but yeah I am working on wrong beliefs as a result of my upbringing. But being a spiritual scientist and working on these techniques are so exciting 🙂 I’ll accept my journey at the moment and keep moving forward. I’ll keep trying my best.

Have a lovely day VJ 🙂

I was highly intensely emotional in my written tone. I suggested taking care of someone more than oneself which was wrong. I am rephrasing the words. I did not realise my fault. Afterwards I did. I know self love is important. Now, I try to be mindful when thinking and speaking. I realise the beliefs i built up over 15 years was a result of my upbringing. This incident shattered my ego. I understand that forgiveness is important but letting go of guilt, trying to heal, being cheerful, self love are equally important.

Hi Anita,

Sorry for the delay in reply. I was on a ten day silent Vipassana retreat where we hand over our gadgets to them?

After returning, I did not feel like turning my attention outward, hence the delay.

Well, four years back and before that I was reading up Buddhist literature on forgiveness etc because I had to practice it. In my passion for forgiveness,I said something which maybe I should not have – on the lines of being a savior? It did offend some folks. I recognize now that self love is of primary importance. I was in an intensely emotional frame of mind.  Even now I am in disbelief as to how it became so big. I have accepted it. I am doing ho’oponopono so that I can clean my subconscious mind of all the memories. A million reasonings will not help me understand why it had to happen. Unexpected things happen all the time to people as well as unconscious mistakes and reactions. I have to accept it and move on. I will take it as a learning after I have sincerely regretted my actions. I will try to be more aware going forward and practice self love ?

Have a good day Anita?

I  started a month back, the practice. I am not consistent though:( whenever I read a comment anywhere on the internet that is associated with my past(triggers), I fall back badly and it takes time to recover, hence not s consistent. i remember I had made a comment on guilt and maybe unconsciously let people feel guilt of their past. When I read such stuff I drive myslef crazy. I have tried my best to shut off the triggers but I do feel socially isolated if I cut off too many things.

Vj, has ho’oponopono given you tangible results? Or is it wrong for me to start with expectations in mind?

Thank you Mark and Anita. I really appreciate your replies.

Anita, I just kept falling deeper into the pit. I kept going back to the forum reading up comments and internalizing them. Half of them began to support while the other half did not. I was screaming on the inside stop stop. It has been 4 years and people who read it have and those sensitive would be affected, offended. I feel bad that I could not shut it down. I went through a year of triggers when people spoke about such topics. I still do. I left groups on what’s app etc. Obsessive thoughts that I could make such a huge mistake is getting hard. I have been slightly melancholic all my life and after this incident I feel like I am just existing, like a zombie.