Hi dreaming715 –

I’m going through exactly the same thing; I find it helpful (personally) to know others struggle with these fears too. I’ll be 30 in a few months, and I’ve gone on 30+ dates this past year alone (yes, I count them as well). I’ve never been in a relationship that lasted longer than 3 months, and I’m terrified of being alone forever. The majority of my friends are (happily) married or in a relationship, so I’ve put a lot of effort into making new friends. Joining clubs or groups where I will meet other single women who can relate to what I’m going through – it’s been a huge help to me. I’m happy enough on my own as well, but as you say, we’re social creatures and desire romantic love too. Personally, I refuse to “come to terms” with being alone forever – I don’t plan on giving up, I know I will keep searching for the relationship I desire, and it might take longer to find that person than I would like, but I’ll never give up. I won’t let the lack of a relationship define my happiness, though, as much as I struggle against it. I like to believe that the universe wouldn’t give us such strong desires only to leave them unfulfilled – I take it more as a lesson in patience, and doing what I can to work on myself in the meanwhile. When the dating scene gets rough and I lose the energy, I remind myself that I’d rather be alone than in bad company, or with someone who isn’t excited to be with me. I wish you lots of patience and happiness on your journey.