Hi Helen,

I second the answers here and I also wanted to add a different point of view.

I sometimes disagree with the commonly adopted statement that “feelings and emotions are the result of our conscious or subconscious thoughts. I think that there is a purely organic, hormonal part of it. I have noticed that I tend to “long for something” and experience more sadness and anxiety in the morning hours, while in the afternoon and at night I feel more in peace with myself. I virtually could notice how a bad feeling initiate a bad thought. What I am trying to practice lately is the awareness of the feeling (emotion, sensation) and just trying to relax and accept that sometimes I feel this way without any reason. “Oh, it is just hormonal, it will pass” – I say to myself. I try to not believe in the thoughts which arise during this “hormonally induced” feelings.

I am not trying to resist bad sensations anymore, this way they have less power and eventually subside.

I don’t pretend holding the truth, but what if in your case you would feel this way regardless of your life circumstances, your relationship with your parents, your sense of self-worth and self-accomplishment. What if you are trying to put your finger on something which have a purely organic (genetic) explanation which you might want to work on accepting Just another perspective…

I whish you a very best of luck in your soul search.