I understand that Anita is no longer in the forum. I am quite sad to hear this but wish her well and if she can read this, I would like to thank her for the years of support she has given me through some very tough moments. I am in awe of someone who can give that much and hope to someday be strong enough to do so for others.

Thank you,

Lisa

Peter,

Thank you for responding. Success for me now would simply consist of peace. I have lived my life as a server and observer, not thinking I am here to live. I came to that conclusion from repeated experiences.

It’s interesting what you said about a power game with me kinda using getting people to like me as me exerting power.

I believe I have practiced AUM in yoga class. I do not tune into it on a regular basis but find it interesting.

Thank you,

Lisa

[quote quote=417090]Dear Lisa I am sorry that you had such a bad start to your life. Until we become adults we are at the whims and fancies of the adults who make up our immediate surroundings and this impacts on our adulthood unless we take conscious steps to rectify the mistakes that our carers made (Romanian Orphanage Scandal).As adults we can explore what buddhists call the 8 worldly concerns and their antidotes that help relieve our suffering. As we relieve our suffering using wisdom, compassion & skillful means it naturally expands out into the world in general.[/quote]

Roberta,

Thank you for responding to my post. I looked up an article on the 8 worldly concerns and need to read a bit more. Thank you for bringing it to my attention because I do not remember hearing about the 8 worldly concerns in Buddhism. It sounds like something I would really like to explore.

Thank you again,

Lisa

Nothing to report except more of the same. People whose only goals in life are the same as reptiles…crushing the hopes and dreams of people who can see beyond the physical. What is going on in politics today in the U.S. is a metaphor for this. Republicans see what they want to see, believe what they want to believe and don’t care whom it hurts. They make dreamers out to be the villains while they are free to break rules, oppress, ban, and spread lies about others.

Wow, Anita, thank you for going to the trouble to look back at my posts.I really appreciate it. Thank you also for staying with me on this forum. There are some things that have improved and other things that have become worse like my physical problems. I will post in more depth in the near future, I promise.

Thank you,

Lisa

Hi Anita,

Just checking in…I see it’s been awhile since I posted. How are you?

Lisa

Anita I have read your entries and thank you so much for going over my posts. That had to be time consuming and I really appreciate it. I will get back to you on what I am thinking but not just yet. Thank you so much.

• This reply was modified 2 years, 12 months ago by Lisa.

I have tried to make people like me by being of some service to them. Never saying no. People who think of themselves first are loved and wanted and nothing I do makes me a valuable person to other people. The smart thing for a person like me is to be rich enough to not have to be around people. I want to be around people. They do not want to be around me. Selfish people are revered. Some people have no money but are happy because they have people who want to be around them. Some people who are not wanted become very rich which at least protects them from having to go out and be rejected. I am one of those people that do not have either one. I can’t complain because it irritates people. I can’t have either one of the things I mentioned above. I don’t know what  to do.