I know it is a hard road ahead and I need to give myself time to focus on my Mental and Physical health. I have soo much to give and I get so disappointed that I do not let myself shine and share the gifts that I have.
I do suffer anxiety and without alcohol over the years I have found it hard to socialise ie joining new groups etc
Its like sometimes I hide the real me and cover it over with this mega outgoing happy person on the booze that really inside I am not. I guess I am thankful that I can stand back and say “enough is enough” but I have said that before and then on the roundabout again!!

Thanks for your message Inky. Hope all is well with you 🙂

Awww Rahel…. I am only seeing this now I have been off for a while and focusing on other things. How are you keeping?? Did you start another post of your own for advice and support with your issues. I really do hope that you are feeling a little better. Hugs and Love to you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Aww Mags hopefully you are feeling better soon. NOt nice when things are on the low down.
Its hard to keep positive at times but we have to give it our best 🙂 Hugs Tracey

Hi Jane

Yes my partner seems to be a little insensitive at times. He upset me the other week and brought flowers to me and apologised, this was the second apology. I am starting to realise that he seems to have some issues of his own and does not cope well when people are feeling down or negative etc. He seems to feed of other peoples moods and if they are having a bad day he will in turn fed off that and vice versa. I would like to see a future with him and at times I am so happy with him, but I would be lying if I said that I am always happy. I have had doubts about us as a match.
As for the IVF we have discussed this and I know that he would love to have a child. That is a little complicated and a long way off yet so I am not immediately thinking of this. No I do not meditate I would not know where to start 🙂

Tracey x

ps sorry me again. I know that you referred to walking or doing nice things for myself. However when I get so low when I feel that way it makes me depressed and I can just about go to my work every day. When I would get home the minute I step foot through the door I normally end up in tears. So its usually tea and bed. No motivation.

Thanks to all that replied. Having such a terrible time at the moment. I just feel drained. I do not know who to turn to all my friends are busy with their lives and their families. I have no children as I am infertile and in a relationship with a guy for the past 3 months and just dont feel any support from him at all 🙁 🙁 really saddens me. When I am having a difficult time and upset he does not give me any comforting words. Maybe this is just him but it is making me feel very lonely when really I should feel that I have him there as my guy to talk to and have a shoulder to cry on. I have tried to discuss with him a couple of times about be a bit more sensitive toward me when im not good, but he ends up getting angry and that upsets me ever more 🙁

I have tried to make contact with my best friend of late who is having a tough time herself and she is preoccupied all the time.
She is also spending alot of her time with another friend and I just feel that I am very alone in my thoughts and anxieties at the moment.

I am struggling with alot of things. I want to be settled and have a loving man and hopefully have a chance to have ivf for a child. I just feel lost at the moment and can not find joy in anything 🙁

I may as well be the only person on the planet.

On a lighter note. After having a lengthly somewhat arguementative chat about this with him, we have turned a corner 🙂 I think I was slightly at fault also for not initiating intercourse enough and maybe he was slightly shy. I do see a lot of the XXY stuff going on but I am starting to accept that this is just the way he is. So im more positive and feel that we have gotten a little closer together 🙂

Long may it last 🙂