Hi RedDress,
I’ve been where you’re at, and I understand that pain of what you’re going through, I wish sometimes I could go back redo school age life, and not miss out on the things I gave up because I was afraid of the outcome, but one thing you do have to keep in mind is how you’re feeling about going back and changing those things, when you could do that today to prevent that feeling even further in the future. I know change is hard, and sometimes you just need a kick in the right direction, but most importantly, that you haven’t wasted your life, because you have so much more life to live, just keep your head held high and remember that this feeling will not define who you are as a person, but who you choose to be