Dear Tee,

İf you surrender the body, it doesn’t mean that it will not do anything, it means that it will do all what is necessary and you are just the attachment to thought process. That’s all.

İ was doing so much drugs and that’s what one of the biggest reason for my heart surgery. But, funnily, after surgery doctor told me that i am very lucky. Because, if i did not have this problem, they will never see the clot in my under heart, which was not related to my heart problem. İt was out of chart. So, if i took care myself as you said, i was dead because of the clot, which was about to explode. But, i died anyway 😊

Dear Thomas,

İt is not happiness or sadness. İt is resting, freedom, ease and peace. All i can say, i am free and body doesn’t belong to me.

İ can not access those states, because any state belongs to mind. Mind and body is not me.

İt is not actually nothing, nothing is a word just the pointer. İmagine before physical birth, what is there? that’s what You really are. Therefore, any given name or experience or feelings belongs to body and mind. Therefore, what We really are can not be experienced, explained. Only Be.

Peace.

Dear Tee,

Just take watch your breath, feel your heart beat. Body is already perfect. Heart might have a mechanical valve, body might have a pacemaker. But, it is what is supposed to be for this body.

As i say, wanting or not wanting is already controlling. To do something try to protect to heart is more stress to heart. İ let the body completely go. Even if you try to control destiny of the body, if it will die, whatever you, it will die exactly in the moment that suppose to die.

My body is completely %100 better without me. Because, the me / stress is gone. Therefore, body is completely as ease and relax. And because of there is no one to protect, mind is only active for functioning. Therefore, mind is at ease too.

The one who had surgery wasn’t me, it was the body.

Yoga or Tai chi or any sports are fine but only if surrendering.

Peace.

Dear Tee,

The reason of stress is controlling, isn’t it?

İf you surrendered the body to Amy outcome, how can you be in stress or “you” there?

“You” are the stress or controller itself.

Of course, you can have nice time not only stress but as i said before just a migraine can undermine that happiness.

Peace.

Dear Tee,

Psychedelic retreats was at 2018 and a year retreat was at 2020.

Dropping all attachments are not an attachment, it is pointing out.

Moreover, it is not an experience, because any experience belongs to body and mind.

I didn’t not actually suffer a lot. I had just a crazy life, modelling, money, woman etc… Yet at some point, there wasn’t any happiness. Heart surgery just opened the gate.

You can’t even control the mind, how can you control the body? Just using arms or deciding what to eat?

You are just the stressor of the body. Body can live way longer without you. Stress is the biggest enemy of the body.

I am not here to teach you, i am here to warn you. Either you follow or not. İf you don’t, death will show you.

Saying all the things as love or i love you etc… İ am not here for over reacting or supposing. İ said just peace, because just peace.

Outcome affects to body, not me.

Peace. 😊

Dear Anita,

Your entire sentences are belongs to mind. Because, you believe in your words. No self, no universe, nothing still attachments. Just be witness who is saying these or believing these sentences.

Dear Roberta,

I was a very famous model. So, i didn’t have any financial problem. No one supported me. After my heart surgery (even if i recover very quickly), i just had to find what is the Truth. So, i dedicated myself to find it no matter what.

Yes, i did. İ did, 3 months psychedelic retreats within darkness and silence. But, somehow i knew that these amazing mystical experiences are still belongs to body and mind. Therefore, i did 1 year retreat.

Dear Alessa,

Exactly. That’s all i am saying, actually.

Peace.

Dear Tee,

You can not feel the love, because, you are linked with fears, which are holdings.

İmagine that there is no one to protect or nothing that belongs to you, what could be better than that?

Then what remain is love, that’s what truly living is.

Then not temporary happiness, but, living love, living the moment without future and past is inevitable.

Peace.

Dear Alessa,

Total disseappearing is not a belief, it is surrendering all the beliefs.

And you are the accumulation of beliefs, if there is no more beliefs, what is left?

About experience of meditation that, when recognition happened that any experience belongs to body and mind, therefore no one to there to claim. James is dead. Therefore, Body feels pain yet there is no one to suffer. And that’s what Love is.

Love is simply being where you already are and it is end attachment, which are beliefs itself.

With love,

Dear Anita,

Non duality and nihilism concepts belongs to mind.

Awareness and consciousness are nothingness.

There is no you to be aware, just Be.

Ask this question to yourself, where was awareness before your physical birth?

Peace.