Christine,

I want you to keep in mind that you and Derrick are not in a relationship. You may love him, and that’s okay, but don’t talk yourself into being faithful to someone you don’t owe loyalty to in that way. The feeling does not seem mutual. If he isn’t ready to be in a committed relationship, you have no business thinking of him after you get intimate with other people. It sounds to me like you are searching for love in the wrong place. You just graduated college, go out and don’t let Derrick hold you back. You might feel like you love him, but you owe him nothing. Keep strong and remember to always do what makes you happy regardless of what you think Derrick is going to think. Be loyal to yourself and your heart first, and for what its worth, forget about Derrick because he is holding you back.

Best Regards,

Grace