Hi, sorry you are feeling so bad and sick and tired. I too have Ptsd and some health is sues. Luckily they are mostly getting better. I wont bore you with them but pleaee keep pushing until you get a c orrect diagnosis. One problem i had was pain for two years. I wanted certain tests and the doctors said no, that it couldnt be my gallbladder , the pain was on the wrong side. Finally i switched drs and begged for the tests. Guess what? My gallbladder was working only at three percent! They had to hurry me into surgery. If you think something is wrong dont let people tell you it is all in your head! Even loving family members can be wrong. Doctors, too.

Jerking and so forth can be an anxiety outlet. Remember be kind to yourself. Even if you cant overcome anxiety totally that is okay. It is okay to be you with any problems that you may have at this time. Hopefully little by little you will develop good coping mechanisms and you will have hope and joy again. Stay away from negativity. Even if loved ones get on your case, realize you know you best. Take a step back and relax. Go to your appts, ask for answers. Take good care of yourself. Sending you a spiritual hug! Please keep us updated. Holly-Kristine

Hi, sorry to hear about the troubling thoughts you are having. I dont have all the answers  but I think I can help a little. The very fact that you have these thoughts and feelings show that y ou regret some of the things that happened. And, yes, Gid does love you! He (or however you view God) espee loves us when we admit our failures. Then we can start fresh and move forward!  While being yourself is always best, I don’t think there is anything wrong with wanting friends or people to love. We are all important. Of course what others think about our looks or job or education isn’t very important. But caring for others is good. I believe in God. Maybe He appeared in various ways to various people, I dont know. But whiever He is, He wants the best for us. Move forward. Start fresh! You are worthwhile. Find inner happiness and also feel free to care for others. One shouldn’t cancel out the other. It is hard and sad to lose others but someday we will be together. I am sending you good thoughts and a spiritual hug! Take care!