Good morning

I am growing and always working on myself. I have struggled with my fiance and i and our time together. I have three girls who are 9 and older and he has a 5 yr old son these kids are split between houses form ours to their other parents. we are building a business together but I seem to want more time with him then the other way around. He takes a lot of time to spend time with his son and is extremely affectionate but towards me its not that much. i have discuss this with him and working on finding a balance i also work full time. it almost feels like rejection every time but i cant compete with a kid. how do i not feel like this. i write poetry and working on a novel i read a lot and workout daily. I do not like laying on the couch to long watching Netflix. i also spend time with my kids and play video games. but i am willing to stop and spend time with him. how do i not crave affectionate and just do my own thing while he is doing his.