Namaste Liberty
Thanks for sharing your feeling. I am sorry that you are suffering but this post is of great help to me. I am going though the exact same things as you have written and was thinking I am the only ‘chosen’ one to go through this pain. Other than your profession, it could have been me writing this post, word by word.
In my present situation, I don’t know what I could say that will make you feel better other than that even in your suffering you are helping someone else. I am roaming around this forum, and reading the posts on this site and they are giving me a perspective. May be our pain will reduce with each passing day, but till then this suffering seems to be ‘rite of passage’
May you feel a bit better
take care
Chicu