Hey Amanda,

I definitely can understand the complex issues which you are facing.I am sure off late every girl deals with these feelings,which sometimes stretches too far and eventually they suffer from mood attacks.But you know what even if you are gifted with the utmost curvacious physique or a “Devil May Care” looks..things aren’t pleasing as long as u don’t feel good about yourself….personally i felt the reason behind bearing” Confidence” is the feel good factor which purely works out….if u don’t feel good with the credentials you are having in your body and highlighting the flaws constantly,it takes away your charm…In a way you are also becoming oblivion to your assets and inviting negativity which fails to attract people..As for the muscles or the anatomy of your body you can always shape them up with healthy exercise regime and patience, but don’t let it take too much toll on you because mental health is equally important .Be kind to yourself and feel happy cause it will naturally make you fit and glowing….I don’t deny that you shouldn’t take care or stop rectifying your flaws but don’t be depressed with it.For what you have others may be wanting it desperately and you never know people may find you extremely attractive in your current looks…After all, “Beauty Does Lie In The Eyes Of The Beholder”……………….Take Care Keep Smiling!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey,I just felt that i should reply , may be i too have gone through such a situations with a bit of difference as regards to you…Firstly you should not at all feel awful as to how the things shaped up…and why are you so pessimistic that you will not get a better person or that person is the sole creature who is interesting/different…I know it hurts very much but sometimes for getting rid of ill health we have to take bitter tasting medicines to keep us fine in the long run….N why don’t you think the other way as to how can a person with depression or suicidal tendencies keep you happy in future….See its no point blaming him or making yourself guilty as a relation without self respect is not worth it ,no matter how much love or humor is there…..At the end of the day people stick up with one another cause they make you feel good about yourself , that is the base of every relation………It is evident he likes someone and as far as your responsibility is concerned even without you he survived his suicidal tendencies,so you don’t need to burden yourself…..Just be a well wisher for him …….As for you ,am sure you must be a very nice person for whom God has kept something nice in store…and you must be really very pretty for liking a person with so much deficiences….Then why are you depressed or sad,,,,,just enjoy,dress up,be kind as you are and above all love your self.(Sorry if any of my words hurted you,take care)