When You Lose a Loved One to Suicide: Healing from the Guilt and Trauma
âYou will survive, and you will find purpose in the chaos. Moving on doesnât mean letting go.â ~Mary VanHaute
I was ten years old when I discovered the truth. He didnât fall. He wasnât pushed. It wasnât an accident.
He jumped.
Suicide isnât a concept easily explained to a six-year-old, much less her younger siblings, so I grew up believing that my fatherâs drowning was an unfortunate freak accident. It was âjust one of those things,â the cruel way of the world, and there was nothing anyone could have done about it.
This explanation more than satisfied me and, other …