Dear Kane:

Your story is profoundly moving. It’s a reminder that our first loves shape us profoundly, and it is a testament to the human spirit’s capacity for growth and adaptation. It’s a reminder that while external advice and support are valuable, the true change comes from within.

I admire your ability to express such deep emotions and complex thoughts through your writing. Your journey, marked by resilience and the pursuit of love and meaning, is inspiring.

The boy’s primary desire is to love purely and genuinely, above all other pursuits. Despite experiencing pain, he continues to love. The pain of his first love compels him to explore other forms of love and interests, such as curiosity and learning. Despite new interests, his original love remains a central part of him.  The boy expresses that his ability to love is intrinsic to his being and purpose.

“Love has to be somewhere, to exist”-Love must have a focus or object to be real and meaningful.

“He loved to love“- the boy’s essence is defined by his capacity to love, which remains steadfast despite challenges.

“I went through nihilism, despite knowing what I wanted out of life”– you acknowledge a period of nihilism, where life seemed meaningless.

“Advice will only go as far as you’ll allow it”-Personal effort and willingness are essential for making meaningful changes.

“Seek out something to make that ember grow back to what it once was before: to love again”– The ultimate goal is to reignite the passion and love for life that may have been lost.

Your post is a profound exploration of the nature of love, personal growth, and the search for meaning. It combines a narrative with philosophical reflection to convey that love, in its many forms, is central to human existence. The story emphasizes resilience, the transformative power of love, and the importance of personal effort in overcoming adversity.

anita