I also forgot to mention, a week before he left I had unintentionally been acting like a total ass. I was picking small arguments, blaming him for being angry/annoyed with me based on his facial expression, tone of voice or whatever and he of course, got defensive and a bit annoyed.

This happened a few times in a row when he spoke up and said something along the lines of, “I think you are trying to make this “perfect” weekend but you are so focused on that, that any little thing that goes wrong or unexpected you see as a failure and get way more upset than usual and that basically you trying to make the week before I go perfect is making it…un-perfect”. And he was right I think I got so focused on making sure he would miss me, I tried too hard to make a flawless week that I ended up ruining some of it by over-reacting and over-analyzing his expressions.

I sent him a long text one eve when he was at work apologizing for how I’d been and he told me he understood none was intentional and it was because of my anxiety and missing him. He said he was not mad and that next night was the night he chose to take off unpaid from work to spend it with me. He was very physically affectionate that night, we had lots of laughs, lots of conversation, a nice dinner and an overall really nice evening.

I can’t help but feel bad for how I acted though.