Dear Nikkole:
Welcome back. I just re-read our extensive communication in your Nov- Dec 2018 thread. Then I read your new thread, almost a year later. Putting all the information and understanding I have together, my advice is that you do follow up on the appointment you made with a psychiatrist.
It is important that you do continue your studies and training for the goal of becoming a certified pharmacy technician. Taking one of the very common SSRI psychiatric drugs can be just the thing that will help you to significantly lessen your distress as quickly as possible, so that you will be able to continue your studies, work and get certified as a pharmacy technician.
anita