Hi dreaming715,

Yes I can totally relate to these feelings, been there and still there, these thoughts do bother me at times but I just get myself busy to overcome them atleast for a period of time.

My analysis is we have an emotional attachment towards our close friends, friends, acquaintances and even things we do on a day to day basis. It is not wrong to expect an initiation after you have been sincerely doing your part. From my experiences I can say that it does not matter to many, people don’t care about your feelings, their other chores and lifestyle becomes a priority, your availability care and affection is taken for granted and speaking up to them since being close friends hurts more because it does not end your turmoil.

I do understand all you expect is a little casual time once in a while but it costs you too much, I have walked away from such friendships because I did not want to hurt myself anymore.

Something I learned from my husband is to initiate less but respond well when someone initiates contact or is willing to meet you etc.

I agree with your counselor to join a group with common interests and just get involved in group activities that would make you happy not for friendships as such but for your own inner happiness, I am starting to find friendships like love if they are meant to be there they will stick around 🙂

I am glad to have found you on this forum and hope I was able to soothe your worried mind atleast a little bit.

Thank you.