Sorry if this doesn’t make sense just saying what I’m thinking and feeling.ive never realy fitted in ive had the same group of mates since I was a kid most of them have partners familys etc.i am single and realy hate that I am I have had partners in the past but not many I have been realy happy and the ones I did like really like didn’t last long seems I like someone then they end it.i had a woman the mother to my daughter but we grew apart.since then I’ve had 2 relationships One with a woman that I was realy in to but she cheated on me and kicked me to the curb after 3 months which were 3 good months was very painful not just because I liked her but because I knew I would be alone again.the other one was with a woman I met at pub slept with her and stayed with her for a while because was better then being alone again.since then I’ve been single wishing I could have what others find so easy.why I’m writing this is becausy emotions are so painful seeingg someone I like is painful because I probarly or defintly have no chance seeing a couple happy seems unfair and is extremely painful.everyone says you got to love yourself or how do you expect someone to love you which I hate because doesn’t help at all I like every other aspect of my life only thing missing is someone special to share all the normal things couples share.