hey everyone Im knew to this site and so far it looks awesome!!!!!!! im 25 years old I have a son who is 7 had him when I was 18. love of my life. I could go on and on about my past and life currently but I mean we all have had our crazy life terrors and unforeseen events. so ill get right into it. I live a life of fake! I fake everything to everyone because im afraid of being real. what I mean is I put on this face im so happy im so awesome ive got everything under control all the time, im the greatest friend and partner, truth is im not any of those I have things so out of control its not funny and I have no one to tell. im walking around life like a zombie. I have no clue who I am and where I want to be. I was taking a 2 week course for emr paramedics and I failed in novemeber by a few questions. I was so excited my dream was coming true everything was going my way. well to get into that course I had to quit my job well after doing that and failing my school you can imagine how lost I feel? now let me say I don’t want to have a pitty party for me but im very sad and really don’t know how to get back on track with everything. between being broke having a crappy job blah blah blah im going to the gym in hopes it will bring me joy as I love the gym but im finding it hard… it has gotten so bad I honestly look in the mirror and cry because I think im so gross which is un true because I HAVE ALOT of people who think im beautiful..hot….good looking whatever. however I can no longer see it and it sucks. I cry everyday because im so concerned with how I look im so desperate to go back to feeling like I used to im doing crazy things such as spending a lot of money on useless crap. so… any advice would be great. im new to this whole quarter life crisis thing lolthank you for reading.. cheers