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October 21, 2013 at 3:42 pm #44103
Matt
ParticipantAmber,
I’m sorry for the blow you’ve taken to your self esteem lately, its odd how insecurities crop back up even after we find our stride. He sounds like a grade-A clinger, and perhaps its good that you stepped away. The age thing isn’t really a thing, but the “fast hard fall” is not a good sign, especially the way you described it.
It probably only seems like such a “once in a lifetime” thing because of your tender and fragile self image. You lost a bunch of weight, and the “unattractive fat-girl” pattern of mind still has some power. Said differently, perhaps because you spent so long feeling icky about yourself, the emerging of good feelings got tied into the man. Especially because he came across so thick and sweet, your hungry confidence grabbed onto it as food. Now that he’s gone, the food is gone.
Give yourself more credit than that. You’ve come a long way, dear sister, and even more than the weight being gone, the confidence and momentum of a healthy life is very alluring to men, and you have plenty of time to find someone who sees and loves you. Even moreso, you have plenty of time to shop around and find out what you like, what makes you happy, what inspires your heart to song. Let your confidence grow, let your self love reach deep into your own heart. That way you wont settle for something less than you deserve. Consider that the guy you broke it off with is perhaps “romance hopping”, which isn’t really love, its entertainment, nourishment. Its not surprising that he jumped to a new girl, a new toy. You deserve waaaay better than that.
With warmth,
MattOctober 21, 2013 at 5:23 pm #44117Lindsay
ParticipantMy vote is definitely for WISE. I get that you are feeling this “what if” pang of fear and regret. I do that too. But it’s all fantasy, make believe. In reality, you didn’t trust him. You saw red flags everywhere you turned and you were smart enough to listen. Perhaps it is different with the new girlfriend, or maybe she just isn’t smart enough to listen to the red flags that keep cropping up, or maybe she romanticizes relationships like he does so they are playing the same little game, who knows.
You sensed something was off. You listened to your intuition. I say well done! There is someone out there who will love and appreciate the real you and will take the time to get to know you and gain each others trust.
October 21, 2013 at 7:41 pm #44120Amby
ParticipantThank you Matt and Lindsay, I really appreciate the kind words. I agree the
what if plagues me, was I too hasty , too critical, how I can I dislike someone for liking me too much. The problem was he didn’t seem interested in knowing me just being with me. Seeing him moved on so fast makes me feel hurt like I missed out on my chance at being in a relationship. But I think thats the old insecure me ill find someone who will love me in my own time not pressure me for a commitment, after a month or so of knowing me. Thank you for quieting some of my unruly thoughts and helping me to see that my feelings aren’t entirely unfounded. Im going to do what you said matt continue to love myself and to give myself credit I don’t have to settle. Thank you both I will always cherish your responses they do not go unappreciated im sure you took time out of your busy schedules to help a stranger and I truly value that. Thanks again, you’ve helped me sleep tonight – Amber -
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