Hi Karla – what you’re doing is living life. Life is a roller coaster – believe it or not, it’s not meant to be “happy”, but to learn life lessons through our experiences. Every experience creates emotions, thoughts, energy within you. And they’re always there with you in some form – either energy, or beliefs, or circumstances.

Does that mean you’ll always have to carry your past? Yes and No – completely depends on you! Acknowledge your past (as you’ve done here as you related to your story), Understand that it has an impact on you, but after that, if you can use those experiences to create a different story, different future, a positive direction, then you won’t be burdened by your past always.

Here’s an experiment, if you want to try it: Continue writing your story beyond what you wrote above. Write about your present, as well as a future. Write it as if you were writing your story when you’re 100 years old. How do you think you lived your life? What do you think you did with your past experiences? How did you get past it? Did you go to school and become a doctor? Did you use your profession to help others? Are you a good example for your children? What kind of legacy did you leave?

This is a quote I love from Socrates:
“The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.”

I hope this helps… Good Luck!
Namaste, Saiisha