If you check my previous messages, I have been living a nightmare after my brother’s death just less than 2 months ago. Some days were worse and other better but I always had this emotional pain deep in my chest. Monday I felt really down, sad, angry, disappointed, etc., a mix of feelings and emotions and when I got home I broke down and cried non stop for nearly an hour. then, I talked on the phone to a good friend of mine who always gives sound advice. Next day, I woke up anxious as usual, but as I got to work I noticed something different: I no longer was in pain. I was sad, of course, but I didn’t feel this strong anxiety that messes with my concentration, I no longer felt like crying, I felt at peace, I felt…GOOD, and it felt wrong to feel good. Although it’s been a relief not feeling this pain anymore, I don’t think it’s normal. I know that one day I should start feeling better, but I expected it to take longer and to be more of a progressive process.
I haven’t cried for two days and I feel bad for it, like I’ve forgotten my brother or I don’t feel anything for what he meant for me.
On the other hand I’m also afraid that this is just a plateau phase and that the pain will come back. It’s difficult living in such an emotional rollercoaster.

Is this normal?
Has anyone gotten through something similar?