Hi El,
Thank you for sharing your personal story. It must take a lot of courage to share yourself on a public forum 🙂
After reading your post, I am hearing that there is a lot of emotional baggage you’re carrying around that requires healing.
Many times, when things happen in our lives, we tend to sweep them under the carpet and never really resolve the issue, especially emotionally. Sounds like you have really been through a lot.
With emotions that require healing, I’ve found that process-oriented psychology helps me a lot. Coaching has also helped me a lot as well.
I hope you start feeling better!
🙂