Dear life.rocks, it sounds like you’ve done a lot of self reflection about your situation. Self reflection is very resourceful since it can help you make positive changes as you move forward. I think people tend to seek love from others because they don’t realize that love is first found within. If you seek love from someone else without loving yourself first and knowing your worth, you will attract someone who doesn’t treat you with love and respect. Love really does start within. Self love is the only way to a high quality love life. The quality of men and love relationships we’ve experienced is a direct result of the degree of love we have for ourselves.
janet…I had thoughts in my minds for many nights.I have spent painful nights with tears. but after that one day I understand that what is lacking is my inability to love my self. I was just running from my self for many years. This incident changes me. I moved towards positivity and peace. I really reduced my expectation . I started to enjoy each moment ….small things…like chinese food or music. I started to keep patience. and i want more and more growth in me. Due to this change, I feel my self more mature. and happy.