What do you do to re-connect with life, keep your momentum going, after a loss?

I recently lost a baby. Since then, I know I’m going through grief. I know a lot of my feelings of apathy, sadness, and low energy will ease away with time and acceptance. I know there’s no rushing it. But this loss has just left me feeling like a train knocked off thretracks, completely derailed. I have a career that I’m passionate about, but any advancement has been put on hold for a bit, because I kept having setbacks with an important project before my loss. Many of the setbacks were due to my mental health, and right before getting pregnant I felt like I finally had a handle on that and was making good progress for the first time in a couple years. Loosing her feels like getting kicked violently back into the hole, loosing all the emotional progress I’ve made.

Now I just feel stuck. I want to pick up, dust off and start climbing again. But I find myself wondering what the point is to even trying. I feel like even if I do keep trying to follow my passion, I’ll never make it. Something bad will happen AGAIN and I’ll be knocked down into the hole again. I keep looking over my shoulder waiting for the next axe to fall, and I don’t want to live that way. But I also don’t want to let my guard down, because it hurt so much worse to feel like my life was finally falling into peace, happiness, and comfortable joy, then have it taken away.