You’re not doing anything wrong.  You have valid reasons to feel the way you feel.  First, be grateful that you are still young and have time to work on addressing the issues that are affecting you.  Look into finding a therapist to work with.  If you have financial constraints, look for low cost therapy or free group therapy.  Try to reach out to whatever support system you have in the form of family, friends or co-workers to develop a network of support and help with childcare .  Try to take care of your body as best as possible with good nutrition and exercise.  Avoid people who don’t serve your best interests.  Read some self help books, pray, try meditation and deep breathing.  Being a single parent is challenging but it is better than being with a partner who isn’t good for you or your child.  I think trying to find a therapist is probably the most important step for you.  Take baby steps in implementing changes in healthy self care and just keep trying to do things that lead to positive changes for you and eventually things will get better for you.

Dear Crown,

Depression , anxiety , PTSD are all names. Its left to your choice with which you want to associate with or not at all. You have pretty much handled everything strong from young age . You are a very strong willed independent person, very proud of you not many will be able to do what you’ve done. So this must not be much difficult to find your way through this. You need time for yourself with no commitments and obligations. Start working on small things first. Set a routine aside for yourself alone including exercise, meditation, yoga, therapy sessions, a hobby project wanting to do since long. Don’t expect or think about results just do it, follow this for a while like few months to a year get used to the routine as some calmness sets in you will start figuring out what you need and what you want. But for all this you need patience , discipline and commitment. Trust in the journey.