It is wonderful that you have written on here and reached out for help. That takes incredible courage and strength. Help can be found in so many places… Websites, perhaps friends or a family member? You’d maybe be surprised to know how many people share symptoms with you. I myself have been there. I was too proud to just say “I need help,” I felt like no one would understand and no one would care, I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. There is a joyful, bright and very wise part of you that guided you here to write this post, you are trying to save your own life and take care of yourself.

I once thought people would be burdened by my problems too, but I always remember that when people come to me with their problems I am actually very flattered and honored that they respect my advice and want my help.

If someone came to you feeling depressed and suicidal, what would you encourage them to do? How would you treat a dear friend or sibling if they were suffering?

You are most definitely not alone. Thank you for your post.

I can really relate to what you said about society not accommodating certain types of people. I have become so saddened and discouraged by the pace of our country, how fast everyone moves to get on to the next thing, how people only do one thing so that they can get something better in the future. It’s structured around money and “success” and “progress” instead of nurturance, patience, and kindness. It sounds like perhaps you are stuck in that, a very sticky place to be indeed.

Is there a way you really could give yourself a break? If your life were to be perfect, what would it look like? If you could change everything and make everything the way you wanted it, what would that be like? You are more powerful than you know. Mainstream society is very harsh but there are places that are centered around peace and cooperation. Some of these places are physical, actual communities or spiritual locations wherein you may find sanctuary. Some of these places you can find within. It’s all a matter of what you want and then deciding you can get it.

Hello Stefan

I saw some of your videos. You are really funny and witty! hahaha 🙂
I also saw your cover on Angels & Airwaves. You have style man, when you’re singing.

Maybe you want to make songs, or write songs, or play for singers?
As for now you have a job and a loving relationship. That is really good for you my friend! You should spend your spare time being kind and understanding to your self, or with your loved ones. Maybe this will help provide some perspective and some mindfullness. Plan your goals carefully without rushing. You are very young and you can make the turn with small steps, achieving the life you want eventually!

It is good that you meditate, that you joined this community (people here are warm-hearted and helpfull!) and asked for help. Medication may not help you but self examination and self loving will. I believe that!
Let me share something with you that inspired me. That is all i can give now:

Love yourself. Truly love yourself. Don’t admire your self. Don’t belittle your self. Love yourself. It is very, very difficult. I haven’t achieved it my self.

Love what you do,
who you are,
where you are,
where you’ve been,
what you want,
what you can!

Ι don’t know if it sounds too abstract, but i’ve put there, every sentence for a reason. All for the single reason to accept your self as a whole.

I am struggling with suicidal thoughts as well. But, Dude, friend, i don’t know, i’m holding on to hope. I believe deep down i deserve to be happy and enjoy my life and share my love with other human beings. And so do you.

I hope i don’t sound overly dramatic. I do mean these things!

Have hope and take care of yourself
George

• This reply was modified 9 years, 8 months ago by George.

Hi Stefan,
How are you today, I hope it’s not too late to share a smile. There were plenty of great videos to choose from I thought this is a great place to start https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=MQChJxurb-c I went through depression and anxiety when I was in high school where waking up is so painful. Interestingly youtube was the place I found ideas and inspiration. I took this idea one day at a time. It might seem counter intuitive where you lost all hope for humanity and do a random act of kindness. From personal experience it truly works! As simple as complimenting my classmates, teachers, friends and saying good morning and smile to strangers as I walk up to school. I used to spend most of my day moping, crying and complaining about how stressful my life is. I noticed that more similar stressful situations keeps coming into my life so I thought what will happen if I reverse it. Though I didn’t wait till my birthday to start, the result of this idea was quite prompt to bring positivity and happiness in my life! I gave my energy and attention to something I enjoy, in my case I volunteered at a public library and lead an arts and crafts program for the kids with my classmates that become my dearest friends. At first it was just for the volunteer hours since we need that to graduate but it turned to be something wonderful and fun. I became excited about life and look forward for the days that I get to spend my time doing what I love and enjoy. Not long after I got into baking and I notice you can make somebody smile when you share food, good news and ideas with the people around you. Nothing beats when one receives something great and unexpected. I hope the examples I shared gives you an idea and bring a smile and happiness to your life just like it did to mine.
By the way I saw your video you linked on your original post. I saw your friend trying to hold her laugh and you two made me smile. Those are the best! Please post more videos I am interested in what you enjoy doing.

P.S. The rest of my post didn’t show up earlier so I had to rewrite it. Now I learned not to put emoticons since it deletes the rest of the post 🙂 I am always happy when I get another chance for I know it’s never too late!

hi dude, how are you?i am a general physician.. would like to add a few words..
1. acne medicines such as retinoic acid derivatives, etc MAY cause depressive thoughts but the effect would not last 5 years after discontinuing them.(if i may ask were you having lot of acne that required you to take oral medications for that? were you bothered by acne? has it healed now? are u still using the medicine as a pill or for applying on your skin? are there any other medicine that have to use daily?)
2. if you have a gut feeling that your mood and thoughts are influenced by a physical cause i would like to suggest that you meet a primary physician; to look for and investigate for thyroid problems, blood sugar levels,and other hormonal levels. also, i have seen that certain nutritional deficiencies of vitamins (B, D,etc mostly) iron and other minerals may cause fatigue and depressive thoughts.. in any of the above cases, taking supplementation medicines would help you a lot. (i know we all try and eat right, but some times what we eat is just not enough..)
3. i would also suggest to get good exposure to sun light… morning sun between 11 am and 1 pm until we get slight amount of tan, would replenish vitamin d levels to the required amounts, which is important to give us the sense of well being besides making our body stronger.
4. it looks like you have a lot of energy to create things and care for people, things etc… can u keep pets, do gardening etc..?this would help too..
5.lastly, if no specific cause has been found, yet your daily living is being affected,i would suggest to consult a psychiatrist, and go for some medication..at least for some time.. this last point i am saying from personal experience… that i was extremely depressed at many times in my life.. sometimes with a cause and sometimes with no cause.. when meditation, therapy, nutrition, friendships, exercise – none of this was working, taking some medication in a small dose for say 2 – 4 weeks would bring me back to normal, and i used to taper and leave it. i hear a lot of people saying they don’t want to take any medication for depression or anxiety… but i would say,if our life style is affected by our mental health we should go for it after consulting psychiatrist.
6. all other aspects i wanted to tell u are already addressed by other people..
i would remember you in my prayers..
such a long long post… congratulations on making it till here.. good luck to you.