We are in a relationship for 9 months. Everything between us was going completely fine from the very beginning. We’ve shared some great moments, dreams together. I didn’t find any troubling behavior from her except her addiction to the social media. This always made me uncomfortable. I was telling her almost everyday that, please come forward, put away the phone from your hand, take a look at the real world around you, try to enjoy the real life, real friends. I didn’t ask her to stop all of her social media activity, I just asked for a limited, controlled activity in social media.

But things begun worse when I found out that, at the very midnight, while I was talking with her over phone (we have long distance relationship) she actually  was in  her FB account and surfing the news feed, chatting with others. I felt ignored, told her not to do the same again. Without any anger, very gently. But she did it over and over again. So I sat with her, discussed the matters deeply and  knew from her that there is a guy in her friend list who proposed her to marry him. After knowing that, I told her not to get close anymore with that guy as she is committed with me. At first she refused and told me she wanted to maintain friendship with him. Later I observed that the intention of that guy to her didn’t change a bit. So I asked her strongly to avoid that guy. She promised and after a month of her promise I found she actually broke the promise and continue the chatting. I broke into anger, felt insulted, felt broken. After seeing my reaction, she promised again the same and you know what broke it after the very next day. I know it again after weeks, told her, why???? I cried, I felt completely broken, the feeling was like she insulted all of my love, care, dreams, everything!! Then she told me to calm down, told that she understood her mistakes and promised for the third time that it won’t happen again.

After a month, two days ago, I found that she is in touch with that person, still, after all of those promises! And you know, the person still wants her as his GF/Mate. She is now telling that, what massive wrong she did? She just talked a little bit with him, it’s not a crime! I said, yeah! But you promised again and again not to do that “little bit of talk”. She said, I didn’t gave him the place where you are in my mind. I wasn’t in a relationship with him.

I know, I know she wasn’t in a relationship. But, didn’t she saw that actually I couldn’t take that persons intention to her? Didn’t she found that I was actually hurt? If the love was worth didn’t she put that person away for the sake of my tears? It wasn’t a domination. I never force her to stop spending time with friends n’ family. I just want her to stop making contacts with those person who’s intention is to make her their partner/gf. Did I do anything wrong by that?

Now, again she is telling me that she did wrong and want to make promise that she won’t make contact with him. But honestly, I’m broken, my trust is broken. how can I be ensured that she won’t do the same? She won’t broke the trust? She won’t hurt me again by same behavior?

I’m going down. It feels like I’m breathing but I’m not alive. Please tell me what can I do now? forgive her? I don’t know. Help me please!!