TheAwakening,

I’m sorry for the painfulness and unstable emotions you’re experiencing. From what you describe, I would say you might be a bit energetically top heavy. Said differently, sometimes if our third eye chakra is wide open (seeing deeply into reality) but our root chakra is not open (grounding our experiences) then we can become like a pressure cooker. Imagine what the lower belly goes through when we are constipated. Every poke and prod is incredibly painful, and it seems that our skin is overly sensitive.

To see if this is perhaps what you’re experiencing, you could do a few things. You could grab some hematite or black tourmaline and sit quietly for 15 minutes and see if the “sense of unease” lessens. Or, you could go take a walk in nature barefoot, and if by old trees, all the better. Or, you could also go meet with a yoga teacher, and ask them to help get your energy into balance. Finally, you could practice metta meditation, which helps us let go of the mental agitation that leads to the craving/aversion cycle that disrupts the stability of our root.

I’ve seen this most often with people who come to awareness with intense stimulation, such as hallucinogens or kundelini release. Also in some folks who have done a lot of reading and contemplating the nature of reality, without a lot of practice in putting those ideas into action.

With warmth,
Matt

I do relate to what you are describing. It reminds me of a time after I was in a major car accident, (four cars one motorcycle, I was the first impacted). Afterwards, for a very a long time I couldn’t walk thru a grocery store without fear on an energetic level of having a cart run into me. And, hugs, I couldn’t tolerate any that included what felt like slapping, which I’m sure were meant as patting. I couldn’t watch tv that had any violence because I Felt it too much. I was open. But, I was also young and had no guidance.
Now, I’m older! I feel raw again. I had to take a medical leave from work because I was vacillating between swift and large rages, dark cloaked depressions or free flowing and uncontrollable tears. Not a very reliable employee! I’ve finally found a therapist, starting this week…changed my psychotropic meds began reading a spiritual book with my Sister on the phone every day.
It sounds to me as though you are doing beautiful aware work. I like the idea of talking with your therapist about what you feel is missing. Maybe she can help with this next step, maybe she can’t. Be in the question, pray and or meditate on I t. You ARE on your path!

Many Sweet Wishes,
Kimberly