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  • #230761
    Shelbyville
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    Kkasxo,

    First of all, you’re doing amazingly. You made it to the wedding. You got involved. You actually got distracted. So well done. Weddings will bring up all those kind of feelings for sure, I even used to get a bit overwhelmed at weddings when I was there WITH my ex!

    It’s heartbreaking, I know. But you had enough confidence to go, so the next time it won’t seem as tough and the time after that, you will enjoy it.

    One day down, not many more to go, so keep swimming. Survival is an achievement.

     

    S x

    #230763
    Victoria
    Participant

    Hi Shelby,

    I agree with you. I’ve just spent the day alone and because I have talked to him this week I miss him.

    I promise you that you will find joy again. I can’t tell you when or how but I do know that you most likely will wake up one day and just feel lighter with a feeling that you are ready to listen to music again.

    Sending hugs!

    I love the internet but I keep having 5 tabs open and not really focusing on one thing.

    #230765
    Victoria
    Participant

    Hi Kkasxo,

    I agree with shelby. Congrats on going and getting involved. I can related to seeing couples being all couply whilst your stood there and then the emotions just hit you like a tidal wave. That happened when I went on a night out around two weeks ago now (although the last two weeks have felt like two years) and it didnt ruin my night but lead me to have a little cry before deciding it was the best time to go to bed and id stopped having fun.

    It will get easier, cocktails may have been a contributed to it suddenly feeling overwhelming.

    You are strong and you can do this! What are the plans for tomorrow? Is it the day they exchange vows? (I have little experience with weddings). Although with my ex his cousin proposed to his girlfriend of 6 months or a year and all I could think was why isnt that us? am I not good enough? Idk if that’s relate-able, anyway, sending hugs and encouragement that you’ll get through it and feel stronger for it ,

    V

     

    #230769
    Shelbyville
    Participant

    Victoria,

    It makes sense that you miss him. I miss my ex dearly and in fact am almost of the verge of contacting him now this very minute. After more than 3 wks of no contact. But I probably won’t. I do this regularly, think of a good time to make contact etc but when push comes to shove, I back down and don’t do it.

    I’m not sure how I will feel in the future, I can’t predict it I guess, but I somehow feel I’m always going to lament the loss of this relationship even if it isn’t as raw anymore.

    Thank you for the hugs. I particularly miss those from him! As for the internet, very little holds my interest at the moment, except maybe an Instagram account about cleaning your house!

    #230817
    Victoria
    Participant

    Shelby,

    No don’t do it aha Believe me you’ll just miss him more (speaking from experience). I am currently getting upset over the fact that I have a blue peter badge that I won 8 years ago and I’ve just found out I could have used it to get in to attractions for free…but now I might not be able to use it 🙁 I’m finding little things make me irrationally upset at the moment haha

    Have you tried any funny animal videos? I distracted myself with those two nights ago because I was thinking about him too much.

    At the moment I am realising how many things I want to do and how they include doing them with another person. *sigh*

    Is that instagram accoun nikki..something? I think I heard about it and I haven’t even watched it haha

    Well done on your willpower (:

    #230843
    Shelbyville
    Participant

    Victoria,

    Thats what’s stopping me I think. It’s horrendous now and I miss him, barely coping. Will it be ten times worse if I make contact for absolutely no valid reason! So I don’t.

    My brother sent me a bunch of funny videos of that nature but I haven’t gotten round to watching them. (Cos I’m sooooo busy….as if!!)

    The insta account is Mrs Hinch Home and genuinely, watching her clean her shower has been the most riveting thing I’ve watch led since the break up!

    #230845
    Victoria
    Participant

    Shelby,

    ah yes! I saw her on Good Morning Britain or something like that, I will check her out at some point.

    I agree, and its so easy to find a reason. I did the other day but when he replied I was like “hang on why did I want to speak to him again” turns out I just wanted some validation but it has made the urge to contact/try again worse.

    That was lovely of your brother (: My own, hasn’t reached out or answered any of my calls 🙁 it really sucks when you don’t have your family’s support. The only person who’s contacted me is my mum but that doesn’t really help because I know deep down shes gloating, I need genuine interest and concern rn.

    I know that the urge is only there because I’m tired so maybe I might go to bed. I’m waiting for my appetite to come back as I haven’t been eating the best diet which isn’t helping.

    I’m currently aimlessly browsing at stuff on groupon and finding coupons. Its not very interesting but its stopping me messaging him.

     

    – V

    #230849
    Kkasxo
    Participant

    Hiya ladies,

    Yes tomorrow is the day the two love birds tie the knot! I’m looking forward to the ceremony although mostly I’m just looking forward to the following day and flying back home and back to my bed!

    I’m finding my mind wandering off at the moment to what he may be doing right now, who he may be entertaining and it’s breaking my heart. F**k, I really don’t want to live without this man! Why doesn’t he just fix up?! The thought of him with someone else is actually making me feel physically sick and I don’t even know why my brain allows these thoughts to wander around!

    Sorry if I sound soppy right now! I’m having a particularly hard time with all this! I feel like I’ve been so brave and rational headed in the days upcoming to what would’ve been our anniversary and now I’m just getting worse with each day!

     

     

    #230857
    Victoria
    Participant

    Kkasxo,

    breath, stay strong, it’ll be ok you’ll be back at home and in bed soon enough! I don’t what I can say except same, my bf and I had an open relationship but when I thought of him sleeping with someone else I too felt physically sick at that thought.

    If its near your anniversary no wonder you are feeling like you aren’t making progress. You are, but its also important for you to allow yourself to be sad and recognise that it may be a few painful days but you WILL survive it.

    Sending my best wishes

     

    #230859
    Victoria
    Participant

    Hi,

    I had a panic attack earlier and urgently messaged my ex to see if he was ok, I dont know why my brain was telling me he wasn’t.

    I then went onto a site where he had changed his relationship status about me which I was prepared for, so I have been active on that site messaging others, I suppose showing that I can be active too. But now I feel petty and bad for messaging anyone. Especially as I can’t sleep, my head aches, my heart aches and I’m bored.

    Again, sending hugs and luck for tomorrow!

    #230863
    Shelbyville
    Participant

    Kkasxo,

    Normal. It’s all completely normal. It’s 3.5 wks since my break up with zero contact and zero hope of reconciliation and I spent hours last night debating wouldI text him. I didn’t in the end, because I was afraid. Afraid it would set me back, it’s tough enough at the moment, not to spiral further.

    So my advice is, don’t do it. I know you really really really want to, but just remember, it will make you feel worse. And you feel pretty bad as it is. Do you really want to feel worse? DONT think about him with anyone else. That’s one of my triggers for panic attacks and nausea, so basically, if the thought arises, just say ‘not now’ and move on to something else.

    A wedding was always going to be tough to deal with, but you’ve survived one day haven’t you? You CAN survive another one. You’re in bits, but you’re surviving. You can survive without your ex.

     

    Victoria,

    Im so sorry you had a panic attack, I know how horrible they are. For me, I get them when emotion bubbles up and needs release, like pain for example. So maybe it’s necessary to sit with the pain and upset and panic until it passes rather than reaching for the phone to get him to alleviate it. I suppose it’s about trying to self sooth in a way. Here I am giving advice I find difficult to implement myself! So do t worry, I know how hard it can be.

    Dont feel bad for contacting him, you’re human and doing the best you can. Just try and get by today as best you can.

    S x

    #230865
    Kkasxo
    Participant

    Hiya both,

    Hope you’re okay and all anxiety has passed this morning?!

    No changes on my end. I am getting my hair done and slowly getting ready for the wedding and I must emotionally I am not down for it at all. At the same time, I’m getting so tired of being unable to accept the end of my relationship and hurting that he doesn’t reach out or doesn’t show up wanting to change things! He’s clearly getting on with his life.. why is that not so simple for me?!

    Last night at the cocktail party all of our favourite songs came on and I pictured us on the dance floor, enjoying one another like we always have and the nostalgia kicked in.

    I really want to at least accept that this is the end and that there is no more hope for us. I want to be able to rationalise with myself when having times like these and say ‘I know you miss him, I’m acknowledging the hurt BUT what’s done is done. So, what’s next?!’ And just get on with the rest of my day!

    Honestly, I really did underestimate heart break before this!

    #230867
    Shelbyville
    Participant

    Kkasxo,

    You’re not accepting it. It’s just not where you are at. I asked my therapist how do I feel better and he replied that I’d feel better when I start to move on. When I asked how I move on, he said it doesn’t work like that. You can’t force yourself to accept, you can’t force yourself to move on. It’s happens when it happens as part of the process.

    Im 3.5 wks out now and I still haven’t accepted it, so technically you’ve only had a few days yet, so it’s raw. I get hurt too when I don’t wake up to an ‘I’m sorry’ text. I really want him to change his mind, but he hasn’t.

    That doesn’t stop me wanting to contact him however, despite all that. In fact, I’m pretty sure I’m going to contact him this morning as I feel, I’ve not been resisting to try and move on and away from the breakup, I feel like I’m inevitably going to contact him at some stage, so each day is merely delaying the inevitable.

    Its torture listening to your favourite songs, but just grit your teeth and get through it as best you can. You are where you are, you miss him dearly because he was/is everything to you. Don’t beat yourself up because you can’t make yourself accept it. Apparently we will accept it. In time.

     

    S x

    #230871
    Shelbyville
    Participant

    Ok,

    I have a confession. I texted him earlier. I succumbed as I expected I would eventually. It is what it is and I guess I knew I had to get it out of my system. It felt like a pressure boiler about to burst and I knew it would at some stage.

    He has not responded, which is probably for the best. For those who have been in a similar situation, can you tell me what is the best way to manage this now? I don’t want to feel I’ve bewn set back, even though I was well aware of what I was doing when I sent the text.

    Can anyone who has been in a similar situation with an ex, provide some tips to just get me back on road to recovery? Thanks

    #230909
    Victoria
    Participant

    Hi Shelby,

    I feel you, I may have done the same thing and I too haven’t got a reply. The problem is now we’ve contacted them we want them to reply just so we know they got the message.

    One thing I was thinking about, because I regret messaging him last night and I am annoyed at myself because he updated a social media site I forgot even had a relationship status on it, so it kind of threw me.

    Only because you have messaged though doesnt mean it’ll be a massive set-back, you could just be set-back for a day. I would carry on with your day as if you havent messaged your ex and if they message deal with it, if not just try to keep distracted.

    – V

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