Dear greenshade:
“Nothing really feels worth working for or towards,” you wrote. And yet you are working toward mental health: this is why you started therapy recently and why you are posting here, looking for “advice/encouragement…”
Your family life as you described it in earlier threads was extremely difficult and abusive and could not possibly produce a mentally healthy child. And so, there is no other way for you but to take on and persist in the mission of healing from those significant childhood injuries.
There is no shortcut, nothing you can read in a book or a website or this very post I am typing now, that will provide a shortcut to mental health. There is only the long way.
But in that long way, every step forward counts. Focus on every little step that moves you forward toward healing. No step is too small to not notice, to not congratulate yourself for.
Keep walking the healing path, take your little breaks, and congratulate yourself for each and every progress you make along the way.
anita
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