Hi Saman,

I’m sorry I’m a little late in replying, I’m fairly new

on here and just now found this thread. I too suffer from depression, BPD..(although with intense therapy, CBT, DBT, and three 12 twelve step support programs) have been a Godsend to me. Since starting on DBT, I have not self-harmed since 1994.

My depression and anxiety, PTSD, and BPD at one point so bad, I was hospitalized 6 times in three months. Not alot of fun. Now, I am on great Psychiatric medication, Topamax for emotion regulation and medication to control my panic attacks and severe anxiety. I believe I inherited this from my mother. I think my Dad told me she had DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) and she self medicated with Alcohol abuse.

I I think what might help is every time you worry or get an anxious thought (mine usually happens first thing in morning or before bed) I write it down. Journaling works wonders, because it gets it out of your head, and onto paper. I also learned how to stop self-harm in the hospital, and will help you with that if you would like. I hope you feel better soon. Remember, you are bigger than depression. You are the sky, depression are the clouds, just thoughts. Watch those thoughts, don’t judge them..observe them, but don’t become them. They lie. I always tell myself when I get depressed, “I made it through last time, I will make it through again”.

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