Brian, it might sound very silly as is but the state you are in is probably one of the best feelings ever. The moment when food, drink, and sex make us feel like “yes, now what?” is when you should realize that you are here for a greater reason. I’m glad you are already on the right path. However, this affinity towards greater good has to manifest in more than one ways. I have a couple of questions for you before we continue:

• Have you ever felt people around you are being super silly at almost all times and aren’t able to live life peacefully? and does it bother you?
• You said you tried mediating and volunteering, was there a purpose you were searching for when you were trying?
• What was the last thing you remember you did which felt fulfilling?
• The mental transformation, are you feeling it or constantly thinking about it?

I ask you these questions as I was sailing similar waters a while ago and I think I may have a suggestion on how to feel content in times like these.

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Bunny