Hi 🙂

Just thought I’d post an update. After taking antidepressants for a year and two months, following docs orders to the LETTER – no alcohol, plenty of exercise, eat well and see friends – I came off them about three months ago, and…. I’m fine 🙂 No depression, no anxiety. Not every day is a basket of kittens on a rainbow, but that’s just life. I can cope now. I still don’t much LIKE getting out of bed, but the difference between “don’t like” and “feels like treading water through molten lead” are two very different things.
I’m still quite hung up on The One Who Got Away, even though my logical brain can see very clearly just how little respect he had for me and that he treats women very poorly. I can feel that I’m pushing through to the point of moving on, though.
And I’m relearning how to have fun, just for myself 😀 I like doodling, reading, playing computer games and being outdoors – it feels very authentically “me”, because it’s not too different to when I was a kid. It’s a little more refined now, is all.
I found meditation didn’t work for me at all, sadly – in fact, it seemed to worsen my feelings of not quite knowing who I was… a LOT. I guess like anything effective, some people will have a bad reaction to it, like being allergic to penicillin 🙂
Thank you all for the help and support in rough times, and if you ever need an ear, drop me a line xxx