I am actually the original poster of this message. I changed my user name, since the first one I chose felt too personal and it left me feeling exposed, so I changed it to something a bit more benign.
Thank you to Cindy and Kristi. I so appreciate your kind comments. You’re right – where I am now is a lonely place, and I often feel that no one understands. I liked a previous poster, who talked about his friend who never gives advice, just listens patiently and gives validation and encouragement. THAT is what I could use right now. My brain is such a jumbled mess of emotions, I don’t know where to start. But I know I’m depleted, so any other bits of encouragement or kindness would be food for my soul right now.
Thanks again.