Firstly, I think you should see a professional to continually talk about this, it sounds like there’s an underlying issue. (if you’re not already doing this)
Secondly, I want you to know that I’m so sorry for what happened to you, but it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you, just that one person is evil (and as you pointed out, this is definitely not a reflection on the whole gay community, just one evil person). In fact, I recently read a somewhat similar story you may relate to https://imgur.com/gallery/JzVexXE . I think society as a whole has a f**ked up mentality towards masculinity, and you should be able to share this and get justice. But given you survived this, I’d say you’re a very strong and admirable person.
As for your hobbies, I’d just suggest trying to get back into them slowly or possibly even try new stuff, with no pressure or expectations. But getting engaged with stuff you love is a great way to clear the mind and feel better.
In terms of relationships, I’d say get out there and meet new people/friends, possibly with common interests/hobbies to help refuel your own interest, and also spending time with your current close friends you mentioned. But don’t have actively search for a new girlfriend; if the right person comes along it should fall into place naturally
Hope this was at least some help, take care xx
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