Word,

I work in the psychology field. In college my focus was health justice & disability rights/law. Realized mental health hit home for me so took that route instead. And that’s really cool, the type of work you do is admirable. I know the immigrants rights one comes with its own set of challenges & sometimes heart breaks but it’s meaningful & rewarding work. A lot of my background has to do with working with formerly incarcerated youth, a handful were immigrant youth/ & in the dreamers program – during the raids a few of my students went home to no parents. That was tough…

Totally, I was thinking about something similar earlier today. With my dating etc, how & what I’m communicating. I’m definitely more clear with my intentions & boundaries- it’s a relief. I’m also meeting a lot more securely attached people and that’s a blessing in itself.

That wasn’t supposed to be a question mark..

Word. I think we are all still working through some avoidance tendencies. I struggle myself with knowing what I need & then knowing what I want & those not always matching up but trying to align those things with my values. I’ve been leaning more in my needs even though I feel like I don’t “want it” sometimes but I do it because I know I need it. Like spoon feeding a baby vegetables.

My TF has said something very similar about music . Though they are a woman, they have challenges with expressing emotions & intimacy as well. Not sure how or why that happened.. I’m thinking they’re a bit in denial about some childhood violence , or they had too much structure & not enough nurture or something. I actually… though I love them, no longer care to figure it out. But I thought it was interesting that my TF struggles with expressing those things when generally those are things women usually where on their sleeves . I’m a gender and sexuality advocate so when I first learned about TF and one having to be the masculine & the other the feminine I initially didn’t like that. Many took that as only men and women. Later I learned it can be same gender.. it was confusing at first still . I’m a woman but I’m masculine presenting , I’m also masculine energetically in the outside world and work field – hard worker, go getter , goal setter/ leader . Internally I’m very feminine though , and in the home behind closed doors I’m still assertive but I’m actually very feminine and nurturing. I’ll cook & take care of those I love. Up until I met my TF , I was all the way in my masculine, both outside and inside because I didn’t find partners who understood or complimented my energy very well. I had to be masculine through and through . (Which is why I ran first.. lol) Then I met my TF who was feminine on the surface but pretty masculine internally . But also very balanced. Like we both could step up or step back naturally as needed. After meeting them I embraced my feminine side. And realized my TF was pretty masculine. Which is natural to them but I also know a large part of their problem is rejecting their Divine feminine. They have to embrace their feminine in order to open up spiritual /emotional/mental/physical blocks. I don’t know why they have blocks but a while ago my intuition told me they may have mother issues. Like their mom neglected to protect them or be there consistently or when they really needed or something. I personally tend to refrain from dating women with mom issues as I know ppl tend to gravitate me because of my nurturing nature . But when they haven’t resolved their mom issues I become a emotional & spiritual punching bag to them..

Ugh.. random thought, but im also having some challenges listening to my higher self which is telling me to stay off of certain sites plus social media. Sometimes because i dont understand I won’t listen rather than trust…

I’ve been really good with social media, but logged on today and checked my TF page and found that their post that they posted literally were as if I had a conversation with them.. I don’t know how they do it, but things that I don’t communicate to ANYONE but I have these deep thoughts or ideas, concepts in my head & they seem to have the same ones at the same time..

Which I can understand why its important for me to kind of chill.. I guess we are really connected without really trying. so I will chill from now on. Maybe we communicate in our sleep or something. who knows..