Dear Mak:

“I’ve had several LSD bad trips, through them I’ve suffered from psychologically ‘missing part’ problem, feel like a black hole in me.. I got disconnected from myself, others and reality… my consciousness is stuck in a mental situation that led me to a lot of mis-understanding, delusions and illusions”-

LSD is a hallucinogen, a psychoactive drug. Wikipedia, in its entry on Dissociatives reads: “Dissociatives are a class of hallucinogen which distort perceptions of sight and sound and produce feelings of detachment- dissociation- from the environment and self.

Although many kinds of drugs are capable of such action, dissociatives are unique in that they do so in such a way that produce hallucinogenic effects, which may include sensory deprivation, dissociation, hallucinations, and dream-like states or trances… dissociative effects including: depersonalization, the feeling of being unreal, disconnected from one’s self, or unable to control one’s actions; and derealization, the feeling that the outside world is unreal or that one is dreaming”.

I hope that as you abstain from the use hallucinogens for long enough- the hallucinogenic effects caused by having used LSD will lessen and lessen. I hope that a competent medical doctor who is familiar with the effects of hallucinogens on the brain will help you in your healing and recovery process.

anita

Dear Mak:

You are welcome. You wrote that you are looking for spiritual help. I would like to give you suggestions regarding spiritual help, only I don’t know yet what you mean by spiritual help (different people mean different things by the word spiritual)- can you tell me what spiritual specifically means to you?

anita

Dear Mak:

Can you elaborate on wanting to fly?

anita

Dear Mak:

Wikipedia in its entry on soul, reads: “Soul.. comprises the mental abilities of a living being: reason.. consciousness, memory, perception, thinking, etc.”. Soul is made possible by our brain; no brain- no soul.

Do you agree, or do you believe that Soul is separate and independent from the brain?

anita

Dear Mak:

You believe that the soul is not separate from the brain, but “in-dependent” from the brain? I need to know what you mean by “In-dependent”, if you are okay explaining what you mean by it, as specifically as you can?

anita

Dear Mak:

I appreciate your explanation, it helps me understand better. I want to re-read your posts and give you a thoughtful reply tomorrow morning, when I am rested and focused. I will therefore be back to you in about 13 hours from now.

anita

Dear Mak:

The title of your thread is “Something missing“. This is what you wrote about what’s missing: “I’ve suffered from psychologically ‘missing part‘ problem, feel like I have a black hole in me, something is not right… I lost my authenticity and my soul.. I got disconnected from myself, others, and reality… my consciousness is stuck in.. a lot of mis-understanding, delusions and illusions… I can’t get to be in peace with myself… I want to fly… I wanna free my Soul… soul is not separate from the brain.. It’s everyone’s essences. It is what makes the body alive and what makes Life manifest.. (the soul) doesn’t need the body to stay alive, It has been alive and It will ever be… ”

My input today: we humans are social animals. As social animals, we are people who need people. When a social animal, such as a dog, a coyote, a wolf, a deer, a human.. finds itself alone for too long, disconnected from others,  the experience of life becomes that of Something missing, a missing part, a black hole, something is not right, disconnected, stuck, inauthentic, misunderstanding, delusions and illusions, not being in peace with oneself, stuck, not free- all the words that you used, italicized above.

In other words: a human cannot be okay alone for too long. When the social is taken out of the social-being (ex. human), the being is left with Something missing, and that something-missing is a connection with other humans.

When a human, is alone for too long, an intense emotional experience of fear and despair intensifies and becomes so overwhelming that the brain/ body shuts down, and what results is a disturbing numbness, a feeling of profound disconnection from self, others and reality. That very disconnection is a state of imprisonment. We cannot be free unless we connect with others; the authentic human experience is that of connecting with other humans.

If what I wrote connects to you, or if it doesn’t- please let me know, and we can discuss this further.

anita