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December 30, 2013 at 4:31 am #47935
Eric Schmit
ParticipantYou have answered your own question here, “Why should I suffer when I haven’t done anything wrong” the real question is why are you allowing yourself to suffer?
December 30, 2013 at 7:26 am #47945Asmallhope
ParticipantHello, I’m Listening
What’s the point of living with this fear of being hurt whet you are happy with the person you’ve found? They are not concerned with your past and seem stable enough to go through whatever, with you. Why ruin what is good with fears of the past? If you want to protect yourself and this person take extra precautions, but being scared of all the things that could happen will probably exacerbate your problems. If you know you;ve found the love you’ve wanted and its actually within your grasp, treasure it.
December 30, 2013 at 10:34 am #47961babylaughter
ParticipantYou don’t have to suffer. Time to move on without them. Change can be painful, but it is worthwhile. To move on, what will you do differently? How will you think differently?
December 30, 2013 at 11:23 am #47966Lyla McLean
ParticipantIt’s been hard for me to see that I have chosen to have people in my life who are not healthy. I trusted the untrustworthy because I didn’t trust myself.
I hate the thought that we teach people how to treat us but it appears to be true. In future I will confide much less in people and keep a journal where I can express my truth. There are folks who seem to rejoice in the pain of others. Avoid them like the plague that they are. Lack of discernment was one of my many troubles and I dragged the past into today causing myself misery over and over. When I told people how I’d been mistreated and ripped off I was opening myself to awakening the thief and abuser in others. I was saying, without being conscious of it ” I am a person who can be mistreated and stolen from.” Recently a ” friendship ” ended and , along with it, I hope, my past way of being endlessly tolerant. Why should any of us tolerate any kind of abuse? Maybe I thought it made me a better person. I don’t think so now because there was too often an undercurrent of resentment about the way I was being treated and she never admitted to wrong-doing. She even took a job that I was going to be for our mutual benefit. I forgave her but became wary also. Friendship is supposed to be fun, supportive and caring. If a relationship is not those things it is not friendship. I was also depressed and too lazy to make better friends. I am responsible for my experiences in life and my reactions.
My former friend was constantly putting me down and arguing with me if I expressed an opinion. So I thought of what I’d so often said to others, ” if you’re in a dance with someone and they are waltzing, start dancing the polka. They will not be able to keep waltzing. I asked my friend if we could study something spiritual together. She walked out of my life just when my brother was dying. I discovered that, while I was angry, I was greatly relieved. With a friend like her I didn’t need enemies. She has talked against me but I don’t care. The people who listen to her will hear how nasty she is being rather than what may be wrong with me. I can’t worry about how others experience me. I’m not going to turn myself into a pretzel to please people who don’t matter. I’m not going to dim my lights so someone else won’t be jealous.
Please try to just be grateful for the lessons learned from your negative experiences. Don’t pull them into the present where it sounds like you have a wonderful opportunity to create a much happier life.
I’m so sorry to hear about the death of your family member. Hospice often has programs to help the newly bereaved. My brother died a month ago and I’m going to honour his memory by creating as good a life as I can for myself. There is also a Facebook page called ” grief speaks out ” where you will find comfort and understanding.Good luck with your journey. Love, hugs and blessings, Lyla
January 5, 2014 at 10:56 pm #48464Cris D.
ParticipantHi there, the only things I learn from this life it’s don’t let other take away your happiness. Gathering up courage is scary as people eyes, but you can’t give up yet. Don’t be harsh on yourself.
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