Hey there,

I felt the need to express my current emotional state because I am going through a fairly difficult time in my life. I just woke up from a really disturbing and terrifying dream.

So everything started last year when I spent some time in another country. I experienced so many beautiful things during my stay – job wise, spiritually, socially. And on top of that I met someone very special whom I fell in love with (my soulmate maybe).
I had to leave after a while but decided that I want to move to that country. Although I was not born there, it feels like home. I don’t feel so strongly about any other place on earth.

It could be very easy, but the thing is that the visa process I am going through just stresses me out so much. The paperwork took months to do. Now the petitionos filed, and I feel like this is the most terrible part, because I can’t do anything but wait and hope they’ll approve my petition. I’m going crazy about this. All I want is to move and be with my love, but I can’t “just go”; I’m dependent on the immigration officers’ decision. In this circumstance it’s very very hard to maintain trust, calmness and positivity, and I am experiencing a great deal of anxiety these days.

Usually I’m doing pretty well in calming myself down and trusting in the universe to do its thing, but I feel like with visa processes it’s not really the universe that is responsible because it’s other people’s decision, and I can’t control other people. Deep down I know that everything is meant to be, but I’m close to freaking out right now. Insomnia, anxiety, and a racing mind are my daily companions.

I miss my love so much, and I just want to be with him. We’ve waited long enough.

I appreciate you reading my story, and hope that some of you may have some words of reassurance pr anything else they can share. I hooe I’ll be able to go back to sleep soon.

Namaste