Hi Folks. I try not to bother you fine people, but I could use some support right now.
I’ve never felt so alone in my entire life.
I am going through some health issues. Could be just a virus or something minor, but could also be something quiet more serious.
Because I am not very good at all this doctor patient stuff, I don’t know what I need to do so I am just going to a couple of doctors to try to figure out what’s up with me. Started with some pain in my throat area by the Adam’s Apple. A few more weird symptoms and I was at Urgent Care that day. Doc said it doesn’t look serious, but I should get it checked out with an ENT. I am not being nutty about it. I am not freaking out. I am not taking time off work. I am not crying or acting like a baby. I am just concerned. I have an appropriate level of concern about my health right now. I don’t feel like myself and obviously something is wrong. Hopefully it’s something minor. But even if it’s something bad, who cares? I tired of freaking out over every little symptom. T
The problem is that I am also human, for now, and still have feelings and emotions. And a few reassuring words from my wife could go a long way, but she doesn’t give a flying fuck. She is more concerned about her “emotional” state and is acting like she doesn’t give a damn. I don’t have anyone else. My grandma is very old and I can’t bother her with negative news. I don’t speak with my mom and my dad lives in another part of the world. I really don’t have anyone except my dog. My wife has been a complete monster for the last few months. No offence ladies, but even the nicest girls often turn into complete monsters. To say that she is not supportive would be a huge understatement. It’s as if I don’t exist.
Anyway, I don’t even know why I am posting here. It’s just a sad fucking existence