Right now seperte houseing, sounds like a good plan. that are many parts of me that know that, and there are the parts that remind me more That i vested in a marriage and put all that i had into creating what i felt was “OUR” home. I kept on that path proudly, and completly. Even thought i knew she had distanced her self in her head, re writing our story the way she saw it, until bamb she hit me with ” we are not a couple we havent been in years, at a wedding of a family member” Under the circumstances of the situation where we were what was happening etc, I was just shocked beyond words. And still am every time i recall it. So, i work on myself to now still to build and keep the real story of our 20 years, good and bad, i make amaindes where needed, and keep my emotions about how i feel about ti to myself now, just wok on healing me. This is place i will sit in until i feel revived, and gain some understanding of wht I need to do. She has a Life, outside which has taken president to doing any work here on a personal level. So i feel that, there are oprtions, Mine r to stay, and figure out a plan to be able to do that, hers are she needs to go, so i say she may go, AS far as letting go of my love for her, I am not, letting it go is the hardest thing, because i know i see a future life with her. right now i keep this to myself. in my prayers and heart. Our home situation may not be the greatest at this point, but i surley, can provide for myself here, in a very caring way, with respect to what is around me. Keep the love i feel for her and not be forced to let it go. I hold a rose quartz crystal to my heart for healing and ask for guidence and strenght in my journey.